trying my hardest to be a good person but feel like i am failing. Under pressure by family to do what they want me to do, where what they do isn't right. Why am I in the wrong, for trying to do what is right? I want to try & get back into having a proper relationship with God, if one exists, my mind is cloudy, fogged up. Things don't make sense in my life, as they once did. I am fighting, i am in a war & feels like nobody not even God is on my side. The world is trying to swallow me whole & feel like it's winning.
Not sure what keeps me here, or why i am here. Just to confused with life, to even continue to care. Why are those against me, who are suppose to love me? I want things to change, to be over, for me to be who i am suppose to be in Christ, don't like who i am right now and possibly due to being surround by nothing but negativity. Need to know, what i am doing, is the right thing. If the law has been broken, I shouldn't be surrounded by those who do wrong? who don't even care they have done it, that use religious talk as a reason to cover things up and to hide the person who has done wrong, If i bow down to their ways, it means I have to let everything go, in what the person breaking the law, is doing. I won't do that, so will rather suffer not have any friends or any family. They let the wrong continue and I don't. who is in the wrong,w ho is in the right, why does what i am doing make me feel so low. when i am not the one who has done anything wrong.
Not sure what keeps me here, or why i am here. Just to confused with life, to even continue to care. Why are those against me, who are suppose to love me? I want things to change, to be over, for me to be who i am suppose to be in Christ, don't like who i am right now and possibly due to being surround by nothing but negativity. Need to know, what i am doing, is the right thing. If the law has been broken, I shouldn't be surrounded by those who do wrong? who don't even care they have done it, that use religious talk as a reason to cover things up and to hide the person who has done wrong, If i bow down to their ways, it means I have to let everything go, in what the person breaking the law, is doing. I won't do that, so will rather suffer not have any friends or any family. They let the wrong continue and I don't. who is in the wrong,w ho is in the right, why does what i am doing make me feel so low. when i am not the one who has done anything wrong.