Since My Mind Was Invaded

Since my mind is a mess
And invaded by things I do not understand
Do you still have hold of my Spirit, and my soul?
Has your Spirit left me and abandoned me?
Or is this a test, a trial, to see how long I can fight this...
To see how loyal I am...
Will you protect me in this weakness?Will you keep me from raising my own hand against myself ?
Will you love me when I cannot?
Because I really need you now...