Its been few years since I written and a lot of changes has happened since the divorce and my son was takien into custoday by my Ex husband whom I had not given consent to have full custody of him, but thats beside the point now.
Things I learned is I can trust small ammount of people in my life and hope to God they can keep their mouths shut on things that are private. I am in a very loving open relationship and honestly its working out well and all open and honest among each other but who's to judge unless you feel need to go ahead but again not in my shoes to say what is "right" for me and what is "wrong" for me unless you pay my bills or I allow you have such "say" in chioces I make.
Do I still believe in God sure I do but I also life has a lot of grey areas its not all black and white as many people wish it were to be. Its not all is this ok or that ok or is this or that against the word of God ect.. We all have a moral and ethics compass we go by and our faith is personal to each of us.. Unlike few people who feel thier religious belefs are the core of who they are.. For me its part of who I am not the core as it used to be.
I also found myself happy and learned a lot on how to cook (been cooking 3 years now) and yet I amaze myself every time I go in the kitchen and make some thing even if its to follow directions on a box or what ever I'm doing.. I"m still of course scared of greese and popping but my friends help me and understand to take over at that point due to it just send me into a panic attack.
I also learned what it means to serve and be sure things are taken care of as well,I have good days and bad but at least I keep moving forward and one foot in front of the other.
Things I learned is I can trust small ammount of people in my life and hope to God they can keep their mouths shut on things that are private. I am in a very loving open relationship and honestly its working out well and all open and honest among each other but who's to judge unless you feel need to go ahead but again not in my shoes to say what is "right" for me and what is "wrong" for me unless you pay my bills or I allow you have such "say" in chioces I make.
Do I still believe in God sure I do but I also life has a lot of grey areas its not all black and white as many people wish it were to be. Its not all is this ok or that ok or is this or that against the word of God ect.. We all have a moral and ethics compass we go by and our faith is personal to each of us.. Unlike few people who feel thier religious belefs are the core of who they are.. For me its part of who I am not the core as it used to be.
I also found myself happy and learned a lot on how to cook (been cooking 3 years now) and yet I amaze myself every time I go in the kitchen and make some thing even if its to follow directions on a box or what ever I'm doing.. I"m still of course scared of greese and popping but my friends help me and understand to take over at that point due to it just send me into a panic attack.
I also learned what it means to serve and be sure things are taken care of as well,I have good days and bad but at least I keep moving forward and one foot in front of the other.