I wish things didn't have to be so complicated. I have been fighting some depression along with anxiety and have been spending a lot of time sleeping. I don't even know why I am writing right now. I feel trapped inside my own head. I also am confused about what I should do. I want to contact my church pastor and tell him we won't be too church for awhile because we don't have the gas money. It is humiliating, but we don't have any other choice. I don't want them to think that we don't want to go to church anymore. It isn't like that.