Today I prayed to God about protection from him. He helped me see that my stories will help me heal from my ritual abuse and that I can use my stories instead of being on an avatar site. God let me know this site is the best site for me and that I will be here my whole life and that I can share my writings with people here and heal myself through Christian story writing. I prayed very hard because I was feeling a lot of despair and God let me know I would be okay and that he would protect me no matter what and that it was not my fault I was tortured.