I'll try to be as brief as I can about a long story........
I was seriously addicted to drugs. I mean I was about to die soon. I had Overdosed a couple times and I was getting worse. I was considering suicide as my many attempt at "treatment" had failed and I believed there was something in me that would never allow me to quit.
I picked up a Bible I had in a box of books that was sitting open in my eyesight and I thought "Maybe I should read something from the Bible before I blow my head off" so I set the gun down and picked up the Bible. I turned to Ephisians because I heard it sigghted in a song I though was cool. I just turned it to the beginning and stared skimming. Nothing jumped out at me until Chapter 2 and it read:
1 And you He made alive, who were dead in trespasses and sins, 2 in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience, 3 among whom also we all once conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, just as the others.
4 But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, 5 even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), 6 and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, 7 that in the ages to come He might show the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. 8 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, 9 not of works, lest anyone should boast. 10 For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.
When I finished this section I was sobbing uncontrolably so I could no longer even read the words.
I realized people have been dealing with doing things for "the flesh" and hurting themselves for pleasure for thousands of years.
I also realized that according to this book, I have already been saved from this fate. IT'S ALREADY DONE. All I have to do is know the work is done and live the life that has already been prepaired for me since before the beginning of time.
WHen I accepted that, Getting off drugs was a no-brainer. I went and got support and when things got hard, I would read the Bible until I felt better. I would always find encouragement or something in there somebody did that was just like what I was going through and they got throught it by giving it to God.
I don't know exactly how to explain it but it is almost like the act of seeking God is what gives me the feelings of grace and gratitude that I love. I mean real gratitude when you just sit there in this wonderful feeling that you can get from no drug just happy to be alive for another 5 minutes to witness the miracle that is a human life. The act of searching for it seems to be what brings it about. So I'm not one of those Bible thumping Christ way or to Hell you go people. It's just what spoke to me and it is where I get my spiritual food from. Seek and you will find. Ask and you will receive. Knock and the door will be opened unto you.
SEEKING knowledge of God literally saved my life and so I continue to seek that knowledge and my life keeps getting richer and richer. It's how I end up here. to commune with people seeking God and we can seek together. I can learn from you and you can learn from me, all in the name of seeking a higher power for our life's direction
PEACE- From a hardcore heroin addict to a Born Again Christian overnight. Almost died (stopped breathing) twice, almost pulled the trigger twice and was stopped by divine intervention both times. I was born to do better so now I do better.
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Robert T
Blessed are the meek
I was seriously addicted to drugs. I mean I was about to die soon. I had Overdosed a couple times and I was getting worse. I was considering suicide as my many attempt at "treatment" had failed and I believed there was something in me that would never allow me to quit.
I picked up a Bible I had in a box of books that was sitting open in my eyesight and I thought "Maybe I should read something from the Bible before I blow my head off" so I set the gun down and picked up the Bible. I turned to Ephisians because I heard it sigghted in a song I though was cool. I just turned it to the beginning and stared skimming. Nothing jumped out at me until Chapter 2 and it read:
1 And you He made alive, who were dead in trespasses and sins, 2 in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience, 3 among whom also we all once conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, just as the others.
4 But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, 5 even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), 6 and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, 7 that in the ages to come He might show the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. 8 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, 9 not of works, lest anyone should boast. 10 For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.
When I finished this section I was sobbing uncontrolably so I could no longer even read the words.
I realized people have been dealing with doing things for "the flesh" and hurting themselves for pleasure for thousands of years.
I also realized that according to this book, I have already been saved from this fate. IT'S ALREADY DONE. All I have to do is know the work is done and live the life that has already been prepaired for me since before the beginning of time.
WHen I accepted that, Getting off drugs was a no-brainer. I went and got support and when things got hard, I would read the Bible until I felt better. I would always find encouragement or something in there somebody did that was just like what I was going through and they got throught it by giving it to God.
I don't know exactly how to explain it but it is almost like the act of seeking God is what gives me the feelings of grace and gratitude that I love. I mean real gratitude when you just sit there in this wonderful feeling that you can get from no drug just happy to be alive for another 5 minutes to witness the miracle that is a human life. The act of searching for it seems to be what brings it about. So I'm not one of those Bible thumping Christ way or to Hell you go people. It's just what spoke to me and it is where I get my spiritual food from. Seek and you will find. Ask and you will receive. Knock and the door will be opened unto you.
SEEKING knowledge of God literally saved my life and so I continue to seek that knowledge and my life keeps getting richer and richer. It's how I end up here. to commune with people seeking God and we can seek together. I can learn from you and you can learn from me, all in the name of seeking a higher power for our life's direction
PEACE- From a hardcore heroin addict to a Born Again Christian overnight. Almost died (stopped breathing) twice, almost pulled the trigger twice and was stopped by divine intervention both times. I was born to do better so now I do better.
__________________
Robert T
Blessed are the meek