So here I stand, vulnerable, wanting to hide but unable to find adequate covering. A total invasion of what I thought was my privacy. My life was like an open book before him. He reads every word of the seconds, minutes, and hours of my life. But beyond knowledge, he understands me. He understands me so well, better than my closest acquaintance. And though I stand fully clothed, I feel his eyes peering deep into my soul. His presence unravels the secrets I hold dear.
Turn your eyes from me. I have been abused. And I have done things for which I am ashamed. In my loneliness, I have fallen victim to what I thought would have brought me satisfaction. Lustful men have left me ravaged and my heart is full of sorrow. Turn your eyes from the anger and bitterness which twirls like a tornado in the depths of my soul. My mind turns as like the violent winds, full of confusion and unrest. I want to hide. No one should see me like this.
But in all honesty, I am well put together. I have a great man, just got the promotion I’ve been working towards for so long, now finally I can buy all the things I want. I should be happy. But why can’t I escape this dirty feeling caused by this twirling wind of bitterness and anger inside of me.
This is so crazy. It is so crazy that you see me and you know me, yet your arms are still wide open. If that man of mine ever saw me for who I really am, if he ever witnessed the violent winds of my mind, he would surely run for cover in fear of his own life. But you, you know every fiber of this imperfect being and from your place of perfection you still reach out to me. Wanting to hug me. Wanting to love me in this naked and bruised, rejected and abandoned state. What good is this harlot to any man, yet you find worth somewhere in me.
Then let me fall deep into your arms. Let me be lost in your love. I want to see myself through your eyes. So let me see the ocean of love you have for me. Let me see my worth through your eyes. It is only then that I will be free from the bonds others have place on me. If only I can truly, really truly know your love, then the opinions of men I will never fear.
Lord, I want to know you by your love for me. My desire is to trust you wholeheartedly. Lord, calm in winds in me and give me peace even when the things around me are turbulent. I want a love, I can stand on, rely on, trust in, even die for. Lord, I want your love.
--Trevauhn Grant
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Turn your eyes from me. I have been abused. And I have done things for which I am ashamed. In my loneliness, I have fallen victim to what I thought would have brought me satisfaction. Lustful men have left me ravaged and my heart is full of sorrow. Turn your eyes from the anger and bitterness which twirls like a tornado in the depths of my soul. My mind turns as like the violent winds, full of confusion and unrest. I want to hide. No one should see me like this.
But in all honesty, I am well put together. I have a great man, just got the promotion I’ve been working towards for so long, now finally I can buy all the things I want. I should be happy. But why can’t I escape this dirty feeling caused by this twirling wind of bitterness and anger inside of me.
This is so crazy. It is so crazy that you see me and you know me, yet your arms are still wide open. If that man of mine ever saw me for who I really am, if he ever witnessed the violent winds of my mind, he would surely run for cover in fear of his own life. But you, you know every fiber of this imperfect being and from your place of perfection you still reach out to me. Wanting to hug me. Wanting to love me in this naked and bruised, rejected and abandoned state. What good is this harlot to any man, yet you find worth somewhere in me.
Then let me fall deep into your arms. Let me be lost in your love. I want to see myself through your eyes. So let me see the ocean of love you have for me. Let me see my worth through your eyes. It is only then that I will be free from the bonds others have place on me. If only I can truly, really truly know your love, then the opinions of men I will never fear.
Lord, I want to know you by your love for me. My desire is to trust you wholeheartedly. Lord, calm in winds in me and give me peace even when the things around me are turbulent. I want a love, I can stand on, rely on, trust in, even die for. Lord, I want your love.
--Trevauhn Grant
Find more posts like this at my personal website: goodtoglory.com