Today I am meditating on Mother Mary and her healing kindness. I was thinking about her gentleness and goodness and it helped me a lot. Jesus mother is beautiful and I am drawn to thinking about her. I have been praying to Mary and she has let me know I need to pray for my torturers daily to heal my heart. It is painful for me because they did not care about me but she is helping me have more peace in my heart. I am Christian still but I pray to Mary like Catholics do because it brings me peace and she heals me. I will not be able to make it to the Catholic church in this life and I have always wanted to be close to Mary. I will pray to Mary daily still and have a relationship with her.