Inspired by NF [Christian rapper].
Holy Father.. please forgive me..
I know I'm not perfect. I'm probably the worst of the worst. Of course, I'm my own biggest critic. But that's just how I feel. I know I can be a hypocrite. I know I can be lazy. I'm terribly lazy.. I procrastinate a lot.
Please pull me up out of this slump. Pull me out of this lazy-boy couch because it's not as comfortable as it seems. Please help the title of this blog truly ring true in my life, heart, and mind.
Help me God Almighty.. In the Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, I ask these things.. Amen.
I hope someday, I can do an update on how I've changed. These past couple of days have been productive. Thank You for helping me through with all that I needed to get done. I couldn't have done it without Your strength.
I'm sorry to the readers out there. You probably thought this was some motivational speech. It's really my current struggle, and I'm sure all of you can relate.
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Dear self,
Stop. Focus. Keep your eyes fixed on Him. He'll show you what to do next. Don't be distracted. I know it's easy. There's a lot of things going on around you. They try to entice you. Look out! Dodge it- it's a trap, got it? Keep your eyes forward. Don't look to the right or the left. There's something beautiful on the other side of this. It may seem hard and impossible at times, but trust in Him and He'll see you through anything. Just like He saw you through some of your past issues. It's amazing to come out of the other side of depression and suicide ideation. I never thought I would come out of that.. it seems surreal now. If anyone here is currently going through some heavy stuff, please know that there is hope. If someone like me made it out of this alive.. through His love and strength? I know that you can too. But you can't make it out of this alone. You need Him. Just like I did, still do, and always will.
I do get some bad days. Life isn't all rainbows and sunshine once you accept Him, trust in Him, and ask for His help. I'm being refined and moulded. And God used all of those dark days and made it meaningful by helping me to come out of it stronger than before- to be specific, I'm more stronger in Him than before. I'm not strong on my own. Those things that happened weren't just random bad things that I experienced. As I reflect, I realize the purpose. It seemed meaningless back then and maybe it was. But once I allowed Him to come into the picture of my life, He didn't let any of that go unnoticed. Scars are still in my heart. But I wear it like a tattoo with meaning. I can't expect much out of myself.. I can only look to the One who is already perfect. I also can't expect myself to change over night. This walk is a process.. it takes time. Just like a beautiful work of art or music. Stuff like that doesn't compose or draw itself over night. It takes careful planning.. a lot of set backs.. and obstacles.. but it comes out looking even better because those obstacles and setbacks make it stronger and beautiful.
Holy Father.. please forgive me..
I know I'm not perfect. I'm probably the worst of the worst. Of course, I'm my own biggest critic. But that's just how I feel. I know I can be a hypocrite. I know I can be lazy. I'm terribly lazy.. I procrastinate a lot.
Please pull me up out of this slump. Pull me out of this lazy-boy couch because it's not as comfortable as it seems. Please help the title of this blog truly ring true in my life, heart, and mind.
Help me God Almighty.. In the Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, I ask these things.. Amen.
I hope someday, I can do an update on how I've changed. These past couple of days have been productive. Thank You for helping me through with all that I needed to get done. I couldn't have done it without Your strength.
I'm sorry to the readers out there. You probably thought this was some motivational speech. It's really my current struggle, and I'm sure all of you can relate.
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Dear self,
Stop. Focus. Keep your eyes fixed on Him. He'll show you what to do next. Don't be distracted. I know it's easy. There's a lot of things going on around you. They try to entice you. Look out! Dodge it- it's a trap, got it? Keep your eyes forward. Don't look to the right or the left. There's something beautiful on the other side of this. It may seem hard and impossible at times, but trust in Him and He'll see you through anything. Just like He saw you through some of your past issues. It's amazing to come out of the other side of depression and suicide ideation. I never thought I would come out of that.. it seems surreal now. If anyone here is currently going through some heavy stuff, please know that there is hope. If someone like me made it out of this alive.. through His love and strength? I know that you can too. But you can't make it out of this alone. You need Him. Just like I did, still do, and always will.
I do get some bad days. Life isn't all rainbows and sunshine once you accept Him, trust in Him, and ask for His help. I'm being refined and moulded. And God used all of those dark days and made it meaningful by helping me to come out of it stronger than before- to be specific, I'm more stronger in Him than before. I'm not strong on my own. Those things that happened weren't just random bad things that I experienced. As I reflect, I realize the purpose. It seemed meaningless back then and maybe it was. But once I allowed Him to come into the picture of my life, He didn't let any of that go unnoticed. Scars are still in my heart. But I wear it like a tattoo with meaning. I can't expect much out of myself.. I can only look to the One who is already perfect. I also can't expect myself to change over night. This walk is a process.. it takes time. Just like a beautiful work of art or music. Stuff like that doesn't compose or draw itself over night. It takes careful planning.. a lot of set backs.. and obstacles.. but it comes out looking even better because those obstacles and setbacks make it stronger and beautiful.