I was praying & thinking and it came to me, this "is my final answer".
My mother took logic in school & some books around. I never read them, never took it in school. Yet I often find myself thinking & mentioning the "logic" of some thing. I guess I do look for patterns & principles, logic. I know some computer programming logic and its the same type format- if this then that, or if this other thing than that etc etc.
Plus if you know enough psychology you like train yourself to think in those patterns.
So thinking about the whole thing I wrote earlier about friend B ( B not standing for anything bad).
So it just doesn't seem logical,no matter how I tried to fit it. The thing it boiled down to was: I remembered the story of the demoniac of the Gaderenes. Actually in Mark at the beginning it makes it clear there were two demon possessed guys who came out to meet Jesus. Yet only one is talked about in the other Gospels, as being delivered. The other one ran away, he didn't want to follow Jesus. So since the beginning, my beginning- of being born again, I've been tied to Jesus. Meaning I guess I'm linked to that confrontation, I represent that, and a friendship with me is associated with that (above anything else). So really really really it's not about arejecting our friendship, it's about their rejection of yeilding to God. Not that they have to be my firend to follow God, but I guess I remind them of that. And, in the devils program I am linked to that.
I got a glimpse again again of how it's so not about me. Whatever spirit (s) are running away and they certainly don't want to have anything to do with the likes of someone like me. It's all something in the spirit rhealm (not just an ideology thing).
To be demonically influenced isn't such a big deal, I mean it is and it isn't. It is ( mainly to not be flllowing Jesus is, and thereby) and at the same time it isn't because the demon part isn't the main issue. Secondly, I and others like me believe there are more demon influenced people out there than the movies like to show. Ha and it's not with someones head spinning around either. The Bible says 1/3 of the angels fell from heaven, that sounds like a whole lot of evil spirits. People like myself even believe Christians can have demonic inluence/opression in their lives.
Another way it's not a big deal, is that the guy that was demon possessed, that Jesus delivered had like thousands of demons- yet he was still able to be set free. All those evil spirits couldn't hold him back, since he truely wanted to follow Jesus. The other one didn't get , only because he didn't want it, not becuase there were evil spirits at work in his life.
So for me this means I'm not going to take it so personal.It doesn't make sense and it's not going to, just like the other things I have seen/experienced with people- things/situations that were influenced by evil spirits. God showed me before about other mind boggling situations, that I wasn't wrong , they didn't make sense and couldn't be explained in any other practical way. Then God showed me in the Bible how that worked.
I can't fully ascribe this to them. It's not really about me, bottom line it's about something else, I just happened to get caught up in the middle.I "happened" to be an object in the background of that picture.
So it's not really this or that, and it won't make sense, doesn't have logic to it. It is what it is, and so far it it's stuck to me.
I highly doubt if things will ever change (if ever) until that changes with them. My love is put on hold. So I guess that's it that's, my final answer.
( I really like this song right now, and it's rather fitting as well) Will it be a "Beautiful Ending?":
YouTube - Air 1 - BarlowGirl "Beautiful Ending" LIVE
My mother took logic in school & some books around. I never read them, never took it in school. Yet I often find myself thinking & mentioning the "logic" of some thing. I guess I do look for patterns & principles, logic. I know some computer programming logic and its the same type format- if this then that, or if this other thing than that etc etc.
Plus if you know enough psychology you like train yourself to think in those patterns.
So thinking about the whole thing I wrote earlier about friend B ( B not standing for anything bad).
So it just doesn't seem logical,no matter how I tried to fit it. The thing it boiled down to was: I remembered the story of the demoniac of the Gaderenes. Actually in Mark at the beginning it makes it clear there were two demon possessed guys who came out to meet Jesus. Yet only one is talked about in the other Gospels, as being delivered. The other one ran away, he didn't want to follow Jesus. So since the beginning, my beginning- of being born again, I've been tied to Jesus. Meaning I guess I'm linked to that confrontation, I represent that, and a friendship with me is associated with that (above anything else). So really really really it's not about arejecting our friendship, it's about their rejection of yeilding to God. Not that they have to be my firend to follow God, but I guess I remind them of that. And, in the devils program I am linked to that.
I got a glimpse again again of how it's so not about me. Whatever spirit (s) are running away and they certainly don't want to have anything to do with the likes of someone like me. It's all something in the spirit rhealm (not just an ideology thing).
To be demonically influenced isn't such a big deal, I mean it is and it isn't. It is ( mainly to not be flllowing Jesus is, and thereby) and at the same time it isn't because the demon part isn't the main issue. Secondly, I and others like me believe there are more demon influenced people out there than the movies like to show. Ha and it's not with someones head spinning around either. The Bible says 1/3 of the angels fell from heaven, that sounds like a whole lot of evil spirits. People like myself even believe Christians can have demonic inluence/opression in their lives.
Another way it's not a big deal, is that the guy that was demon possessed, that Jesus delivered had like thousands of demons- yet he was still able to be set free. All those evil spirits couldn't hold him back, since he truely wanted to follow Jesus. The other one didn't get , only because he didn't want it, not becuase there were evil spirits at work in his life.
So for me this means I'm not going to take it so personal.It doesn't make sense and it's not going to, just like the other things I have seen/experienced with people- things/situations that were influenced by evil spirits. God showed me before about other mind boggling situations, that I wasn't wrong , they didn't make sense and couldn't be explained in any other practical way. Then God showed me in the Bible how that worked.
I can't fully ascribe this to them. It's not really about me, bottom line it's about something else, I just happened to get caught up in the middle.I "happened" to be an object in the background of that picture.
So it's not really this or that, and it won't make sense, doesn't have logic to it. It is what it is, and so far it it's stuck to me.
I highly doubt if things will ever change (if ever) until that changes with them. My love is put on hold. So I guess that's it that's, my final answer.
( I really like this song right now, and it's rather fitting as well) Will it be a "Beautiful Ending?":
YouTube - Air 1 - BarlowGirl "Beautiful Ending" LIVE