Dear God,
I am just not sure about all of this. I am supposed to be excited and in a way I am but there is something lacking in all this. I want to go to Vietnam but why do I feel so low. I guess that there seems to be so many possibilities in the past that have fallen through that I am expecting this one too. But everything seems so right. Is is wrong?
I am not sure what is going on. I have recieved one email but I am still waiting on the letter of confirmation to enable me to apply for my visa. I am not even sure how to do that! I looked at the website today and found that I need a lot of things to get a business visa but I am still waiting on it all.
I know that there are plenty of things that I should be doing now. I know that there are things that I should apply for and organise. I know that there are things I should be stepping out in faith about yet I feel like doing none of this. My book is far behind as I spent last week caught up in job interviews and discussions. My focus was not on my writing and I fear that it is too late to get it all done in time for the competition. Then after thinking that my defeatist attitude comes back saying why should I have tried in the first place? It was just a silly dream but was it?
Oh I don't know. I know I should be trusting you in all of this. I know that there is so much more I would like to do right now but the pity party has settled in and I have invited You along. Not that I want you to pity me but so that You may change my attitude and bring me some of the hope I desperately want, some of the joy that I year for and some of Your comfort so that I can finally overcome all the feelings that keep tied down in this world.
It seems at the moment I have so many plans to get going but am going nowhere! I am nowhere and everywhere at the same time! I know that soon it will be time for me to go but where is still the main question.
Dear Lord God, provide me with wisdom that can only come from You and help me to feel your blessing in this. May it be Your will not my own to move to Vietnam. May it be Your will and not my own to write this book. May it be Your will that surrounds and engulfs my life so that I my life is wholly devoted to You.
In Jesus name, Amen
I am just not sure about all of this. I am supposed to be excited and in a way I am but there is something lacking in all this. I want to go to Vietnam but why do I feel so low. I guess that there seems to be so many possibilities in the past that have fallen through that I am expecting this one too. But everything seems so right. Is is wrong?
I am not sure what is going on. I have recieved one email but I am still waiting on the letter of confirmation to enable me to apply for my visa. I am not even sure how to do that! I looked at the website today and found that I need a lot of things to get a business visa but I am still waiting on it all.
I know that there are plenty of things that I should be doing now. I know that there are things that I should apply for and organise. I know that there are things I should be stepping out in faith about yet I feel like doing none of this. My book is far behind as I spent last week caught up in job interviews and discussions. My focus was not on my writing and I fear that it is too late to get it all done in time for the competition. Then after thinking that my defeatist attitude comes back saying why should I have tried in the first place? It was just a silly dream but was it?
Oh I don't know. I know I should be trusting you in all of this. I know that there is so much more I would like to do right now but the pity party has settled in and I have invited You along. Not that I want you to pity me but so that You may change my attitude and bring me some of the hope I desperately want, some of the joy that I year for and some of Your comfort so that I can finally overcome all the feelings that keep tied down in this world.
It seems at the moment I have so many plans to get going but am going nowhere! I am nowhere and everywhere at the same time! I know that soon it will be time for me to go but where is still the main question.
Dear Lord God, provide me with wisdom that can only come from You and help me to feel your blessing in this. May it be Your will not my own to move to Vietnam. May it be Your will and not my own to write this book. May it be Your will that surrounds and engulfs my life so that I my life is wholly devoted to You.
In Jesus name, Amen