I guess I will start writing here, another good place to hide.
i'm pretty confused right now but I want my life to mean more than the daily normal circles of common life. i'm learning how to use a bow and I am trying to develop enough knowledge and skills to be able to survive without the use of money. I want to live with a partner in the wild, away from the crazy creations that this supposed "advanced" world has created. I feel that humans will keep on automatically doing what they do and existing in the general things of what are which means that eventually humans will destroy the entire earth. I feel this natural path of self destruction is due to lack of deep spiritual life by the masses of humanity in general. so i want either a partner or a group of people that are like a family so we can go and live a simple life in joy and enjoy the earth that God created. I believe that most of the modern world and their doings is in one pov done out of vanity. life has become a burden of never ending struggles that should not be as hard as most humans conceive of or make it out to be. the masses of humanity are against simple and innocent living. humans claim the lands and try to create laws to "protect" the very things that they work so hard to destroy. God has given us a light burden of the things we need but humans have turned it into a giant game of insanity. we need food and shelter. so i think that struggling and toils should only be as minimal as possible. the human race is becoming more and more and more spoiled. all I want is to be truly spiritual and loving and to enjoy the earth that God created and to enjoy my time here and to be in love. I don't feel that i belong in society. I don't like that so many good or decent and simple human beings have been killed in the name of Christ. I want to be free from all the BS that fallen humanity has created. I want to depend on God and my spiritual partner or family/tribe. I want life to be life and I don't want any of this fake stuff that humans pretend is life. there is much good in the modern world but I feel that humans have too powerful a myopic vision of reality to be able to properly exist with all the distractions that they have created. life could be so different than what it so often is... and I wish to be part of this beautiful life rather than being part of what feels like a mechanized and dead reality.
i'm pretty confused right now but I want my life to mean more than the daily normal circles of common life. i'm learning how to use a bow and I am trying to develop enough knowledge and skills to be able to survive without the use of money. I want to live with a partner in the wild, away from the crazy creations that this supposed "advanced" world has created. I feel that humans will keep on automatically doing what they do and existing in the general things of what are which means that eventually humans will destroy the entire earth. I feel this natural path of self destruction is due to lack of deep spiritual life by the masses of humanity in general. so i want either a partner or a group of people that are like a family so we can go and live a simple life in joy and enjoy the earth that God created. I believe that most of the modern world and their doings is in one pov done out of vanity. life has become a burden of never ending struggles that should not be as hard as most humans conceive of or make it out to be. the masses of humanity are against simple and innocent living. humans claim the lands and try to create laws to "protect" the very things that they work so hard to destroy. God has given us a light burden of the things we need but humans have turned it into a giant game of insanity. we need food and shelter. so i think that struggling and toils should only be as minimal as possible. the human race is becoming more and more and more spoiled. all I want is to be truly spiritual and loving and to enjoy the earth that God created and to enjoy my time here and to be in love. I don't feel that i belong in society. I don't like that so many good or decent and simple human beings have been killed in the name of Christ. I want to be free from all the BS that fallen humanity has created. I want to depend on God and my spiritual partner or family/tribe. I want life to be life and I don't want any of this fake stuff that humans pretend is life. there is much good in the modern world but I feel that humans have too powerful a myopic vision of reality to be able to properly exist with all the distractions that they have created. life could be so different than what it so often is... and I wish to be part of this beautiful life rather than being part of what feels like a mechanized and dead reality.