Father: In this case, Im talking about my real Father! ( Dad).
As I wake up socially, I am beginning to understand why I don't want a first relationship,. I need my father. I need my father here to sanctify my relationship! He is gone now! and will never be again!
Ive been waiting all this time for him to love me and be proud of me!
I wont have a first relationship if he is not here to sanctify it! I need his blessing, its a right of passage! and all of these rights of passage, I have missed and these were the most important things in the world.
For him to be proud of me in my developmental stages! for his praise. And he is not here, and I have to grieve him and ask God for help for another father to take his place that I may grow again! It hurts so badly!
I messed so many years.. I remember him up to 8 years old and no more. I remember him up to 8 years old when he was around or near or able!
I must go back to the very beginning of what I needed from him and Ask God for guidance and help!
As I wake up socially, I am beginning to understand why I don't want a first relationship,. I need my father. I need my father here to sanctify my relationship! He is gone now! and will never be again!
Ive been waiting all this time for him to love me and be proud of me!
I wont have a first relationship if he is not here to sanctify it! I need his blessing, its a right of passage! and all of these rights of passage, I have missed and these were the most important things in the world.
For him to be proud of me in my developmental stages! for his praise. And he is not here, and I have to grieve him and ask God for help for another father to take his place that I may grow again! It hurts so badly!
I messed so many years.. I remember him up to 8 years old and no more. I remember him up to 8 years old when he was around or near or able!
I must go back to the very beginning of what I needed from him and Ask God for guidance and help!