why I journal...
I journal to reflect upon my thoughts and feelings in order to sort out the wise from the foolish...to bring healing to my heart and mind.
I don't think I need to journal anymore. There are times when my brain gets cluttered but no longer leads my thoughts in the wrong direction. I have come to see most of the blame I have put on myself for things is misplaced and not deserved.
My purpose for this blog was to be to record signs and wonders from above. Not been much happening there lately, as I know I am in a healing period and though I am confident Jesus would love to bring me blessings I have not been a recieving place. I don't hate myself now, I figured out why I hated myself and have decided it really is not something to hate myself for or feel shame about. I figured out also what was triggering these "spells" I have had and in doing so they have lost their power , they come less now.
We all face afflictions in life, we can either believe we are damned or we can believe we are challenged. I have always seen them as challenges and therefore conquerable.
I have come to realize that thoughts are not actions even though the Bible says thinking of murdering is the same as committing murder I see now it is the hate one holds in their heart that is the real trangression.
I have also come to realize that even though the world says one should be confident, self assured, and have a healthy sense of self esteem doesn't mean you need to. We are made the way we are for reasons...I am tired of prentending, I am what I am not or feeling what I am suppose to....I am seeking my authetentic self, in that I will find wholeness.
I journal to reflect upon my thoughts and feelings in order to sort out the wise from the foolish...to bring healing to my heart and mind.
I don't think I need to journal anymore. There are times when my brain gets cluttered but no longer leads my thoughts in the wrong direction. I have come to see most of the blame I have put on myself for things is misplaced and not deserved.
My purpose for this blog was to be to record signs and wonders from above. Not been much happening there lately, as I know I am in a healing period and though I am confident Jesus would love to bring me blessings I have not been a recieving place. I don't hate myself now, I figured out why I hated myself and have decided it really is not something to hate myself for or feel shame about. I figured out also what was triggering these "spells" I have had and in doing so they have lost their power , they come less now.
We all face afflictions in life, we can either believe we are damned or we can believe we are challenged. I have always seen them as challenges and therefore conquerable.
I have come to realize that thoughts are not actions even though the Bible says thinking of murdering is the same as committing murder I see now it is the hate one holds in their heart that is the real trangression.
I have also come to realize that even though the world says one should be confident, self assured, and have a healthy sense of self esteem doesn't mean you need to. We are made the way we are for reasons...I am tired of prentending, I am what I am not or feeling what I am suppose to....I am seeking my authetentic self, in that I will find wholeness.