dealing with and expressing pain

Im in pain from the massive PTSD overloads. Im OK. Ive been a tank for 30 years surviving mental stuff that would kill the normal person in 3 months..

Its still here; the pain!. it comes from trusting people who should not be trusted. I cant trust anyone.. that is how it always feels. Im so tired and exhausted from all of this.. I have no place to rest my head on this planet.

Seems like everyone is treacherous. no one can be trusted.

I have to learn to trust God.

I would like a nice girl to date, as Im tired of those with no integrity... I thought broken people would work, they do not.. they are not seeing me for who I am. I don't get it!...

Im in the psychiatric class, not the middle class. Im getting tired of everything.. Im lucky to be alive.. Im on my knees numerous times a day to God... All day long... This is the way I live.

I need some one that wont trigger the PTSD problems.. I think that would be a choice on the others person behalf..

Im using this blog to express my feelings and my frustrations and anger... And how God is helping me.

I would like some real friends.. So, anyone that is reading this, please pray for me..

Thanks..