Conflict

I have one with my mom.

Now my "theory" for our conflict....where it all started...was when I was 5 yrs. old maybe and I can still remember the way she's so annoyed and so angry at me while I , as a 5 yrs. old kid , trying to defend myself from her like also getting angry at her 'cause as far as I can still remember the scenario, the reason why she's so mad that time was that she's just annoyed at my presence and even hearing my voice.

So , I think I have this grudge on her? maybe I have 'cause our situation right now is not good and I think it'll stay that way for a long time. Just earlier, I woke up hearing my parents arguing 'bout a simple thing and then, they started shouting at each other so , I interrupted.....guess what? she slapped me and plucked my hair 'cause she said I was into and eyes on her.. yeah that's true 'cause I was trying hard not to cry that time like I was breathing hard to control my emotions and I was trying hard to think of happy thoughts just for that.

Lord, please help me to still forgive my mother....and also myself.