Choosing

why are you asking me to choose God?
either You or a friend.

i want You but it is so difficult to not contact them.
i am or was attached to that person, and You put them in my life to help me find You for real.

now i am to choose.
and You are more there - You are more there when i take my emotions and feelings and life to You, when You are all i have to trust and process my life with.

but i miss them.
but i want You God.
each day i find i have a choice.

and i cant even say goodbye, although i have in a way.

will it be for the rest of my life? or just for a time? is it a test?

i do want You though God.
and i am grateful for what You have been doing.

today was so amazing thank you so much for today i am so grateful for it all.
amen