A few days ago, I wrote a blog that was really unkindhearted, and had alot of complaining and some not nice things in it. It's funny how when we want things so badly, how it can turn into envy on others. In this blog, I said some things out of anger and upsetness, mostly because I was frustrated and just needed to let it all out. I upset some people, and others got very emotional and heated because of the things that were said out of spite--which takes me back to the lessons that Pastor Troy Scialdone had taught Jason and I in a church sermon once--the toungue is an evil thing, that can easily be possessed and brought thoughts onto it that are influenced by the devil. I can point out several verses in the bible that state how we need to tame our tongue, because it can be easily hastened by the foolish devil, and influenced by lust, love, anger, hatred, envy ect. ect. but the one that sticks out the most out of all of them:
Ephesians 4:29
Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.
1 Peter 2:1-25
So put away all malice and all deceit and hypocrisy and envy and all slander. Like newborn infants, long for the pure spiritual milk, that by it you may grow up into salvation— if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is good. As you come to him, a living stone rejected by men but in the sight of God chosen and precious, you yourselves like living stones are being built up as a spiritual house, to be a holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.
As I previously stated, there are many other verses that have reasons why we should watch what comes out of our mouths, because even though we may not mean to say some things, it may effect others in ways that we can never take back.
The reason I'm ranting on about what I wrote in that blog the other day is because I was complaining about how bad my life was compared to other young expectant mothers, and comparing myself to Jason's niece Danielle, and in fact allowed myself to become envious and hate those that did have things that I wanted to get for Gabriella--and this was wrong of me to do. I'd like to say the reason why I was envious of others was because I want to be the best mother I can to my daughter--I wan't to provide her the things she needs, and I don't want to have to ask for help all the time. I was selfish, thinking of my own needs, and not thinking realistically, and allowed the devil to convince me that "I was a bad mother and NEEDED to find a way to get those things" which in turn led to my inmaturity of writing that blog and saying the things I did.
Ironically, Danielle was one of the people that it hit home with when I said the things I did in the blog--and she got very emotional with some things that were said. Well, I needed the reality check Danielle--so thank you for being up front and honest with me, and telling me like it is.
Today, I recieved a phone call, and it was from Danielle--She called to tell me that to tell my mom not to ship the stroller and carseat combo, because they got a stroller combi set for us thats pink and brown--Her and her mom, Milton and the baby are going to bring it to us in June along with Rachelle's crib and the stuff she set aside.
What lesson did this teach me? Not to open my mouth with malice and hatred toward someone just because I'm jelous, or envy what they have compared to me. I realized I need to stop comparing myself to others, and focus on what I do have right in front of me--which is the family I created--I need to focus on Gabriella and Jason--and quit complaining about how much my life sucks--because at least I have a roof over my head and food to eat. I need to stop harboring all this jelousy and hatred toward everyone else because I feel like I'm not doing whats right, and focus on what an infant really needs, and that is love, caring and nuture, that her mother and father can provide her. I need to stop yelling and fighting with Jason because he works all day, and I do nothing except sit on the computer and talk to my friends--Instead I should listen to music and clean the house--help him out because he is providing for his family--I need to learn to stop being selfish and start maturing, and fast, because in 10 weeks my little girl is going to be the center of my world for the rest of her life--I need to mature--
So When you start complaining about your life, ask yourself this? Do I really have it that bad?
When I need some common sense knocked into me, please for pete's sake, knock it into me, don't butter me up and tell me "It's alright poor baby" tell me to get a reality check and tell me how it really is--tell me the truth, and tell me to suck it up and grow up and quit complaining like Danielle did--because sometimes this is what I need to realize "hey, I'm being very inmature right now, Its not about me, its about my family, and its about Gabriella"
Ephesians 4:29
Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.
1 Peter 2:1-25
So put away all malice and all deceit and hypocrisy and envy and all slander. Like newborn infants, long for the pure spiritual milk, that by it you may grow up into salvation— if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is good. As you come to him, a living stone rejected by men but in the sight of God chosen and precious, you yourselves like living stones are being built up as a spiritual house, to be a holy priesthood, to offer spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.
As I previously stated, there are many other verses that have reasons why we should watch what comes out of our mouths, because even though we may not mean to say some things, it may effect others in ways that we can never take back.
The reason I'm ranting on about what I wrote in that blog the other day is because I was complaining about how bad my life was compared to other young expectant mothers, and comparing myself to Jason's niece Danielle, and in fact allowed myself to become envious and hate those that did have things that I wanted to get for Gabriella--and this was wrong of me to do. I'd like to say the reason why I was envious of others was because I want to be the best mother I can to my daughter--I wan't to provide her the things she needs, and I don't want to have to ask for help all the time. I was selfish, thinking of my own needs, and not thinking realistically, and allowed the devil to convince me that "I was a bad mother and NEEDED to find a way to get those things" which in turn led to my inmaturity of writing that blog and saying the things I did.
Ironically, Danielle was one of the people that it hit home with when I said the things I did in the blog--and she got very emotional with some things that were said. Well, I needed the reality check Danielle--so thank you for being up front and honest with me, and telling me like it is.
Today, I recieved a phone call, and it was from Danielle--She called to tell me that to tell my mom not to ship the stroller and carseat combo, because they got a stroller combi set for us thats pink and brown--Her and her mom, Milton and the baby are going to bring it to us in June along with Rachelle's crib and the stuff she set aside.
What lesson did this teach me? Not to open my mouth with malice and hatred toward someone just because I'm jelous, or envy what they have compared to me. I realized I need to stop comparing myself to others, and focus on what I do have right in front of me--which is the family I created--I need to focus on Gabriella and Jason--and quit complaining about how much my life sucks--because at least I have a roof over my head and food to eat. I need to stop harboring all this jelousy and hatred toward everyone else because I feel like I'm not doing whats right, and focus on what an infant really needs, and that is love, caring and nuture, that her mother and father can provide her. I need to stop yelling and fighting with Jason because he works all day, and I do nothing except sit on the computer and talk to my friends--Instead I should listen to music and clean the house--help him out because he is providing for his family--I need to learn to stop being selfish and start maturing, and fast, because in 10 weeks my little girl is going to be the center of my world for the rest of her life--I need to mature--
So When you start complaining about your life, ask yourself this? Do I really have it that bad?
When I need some common sense knocked into me, please for pete's sake, knock it into me, don't butter me up and tell me "It's alright poor baby" tell me to get a reality check and tell me how it really is--tell me the truth, and tell me to suck it up and grow up and quit complaining like Danielle did--because sometimes this is what I need to realize "hey, I'm being very inmature right now, Its not about me, its about my family, and its about Gabriella"