Last night I was overcome by, not just the words, but so much more, of a Showbread song, "Matthias Replaces Judas." I felt like crap for how I am living my life. By the worlds standards I am living an ok life, but to God, I am cheating Him out of so much. I disobey daily without fail, when that is not what he asks for. He asks for so little and I give even less. I will say that my support lays with Him and with friends like Brad, Trott and Hale. I will become what God what's for me, for my heart is all I have to give.