And the title says everything. And all I am learning is the above. The last part is the hard part. The last part of the title is what makes things so difficult.
Laying down my Ego and stepping out of the way is impossible without help! And a journey is behind all.
I have mass contempt toward God and all living things.. Mass hatred! deep dark satanic eveil hatred towards all living death! Blow it all up! all of it..
The idea is trust. Yet, I never was allowed to trust anything... anyone. I do not trust God. I think God killed the world and everyone in it.
I must trust God and talk to him. I hate him. F him! Why would he hurt everyone. Why would he allow children to die! why!
I have to talk to God. So much pain.. So much pain! I think he is a coward. He does not have the guts to take care of his people; he lets them die! F him !
And many more things Im going to say to him. Over n over, until I get it out!
What good is a God if he does not save your life. What is the point... So much pain.
I have allot of pain and confusion to get out! I have allot of hell Im going to unleash upon God for what he has done... I want my revenge... Im going to tell him everything...
I won't forgive God if he continues to allow children to be slain in these stupid societies..
God cannot survive without me! He must bend to my will! If he does not, I will give up, and not care what direction I go in. Since God loves me, he will do these things to prove himself to me.
And he will always be under the gun with me! He will be expected to prove himself from now on. He will be whipped into shape and learn how to protect his creations.. I will stand for no less.
He has no business creating us and then letting us die! This is ridiculous. So I have many words to say to his face... Not really, I will bow before him and tell him in a dream..
I do love God, Im just [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed of at him! I need help. What is this bless not curse slop! ( tell the truth, do not lie) ( my feelings are my business, they are not right or wrong, and I will express all of them, I do not need your permission) I plan to bless no one! if you want blessings, ask God, he is the one that can bless. Im just a creature down on earth screaming out for help!.. Its eveil to control people and what they think and what they say!.
I cannot do things alone!
I hope he can forgive me!~
He was not there for me when I was a child! He must prove himself. I have to learn to trust him again; he has to follow through.
Laying down my Ego and stepping out of the way is impossible without help! And a journey is behind all.
I have mass contempt toward God and all living things.. Mass hatred! deep dark satanic eveil hatred towards all living death! Blow it all up! all of it..
The idea is trust. Yet, I never was allowed to trust anything... anyone. I do not trust God. I think God killed the world and everyone in it.
I must trust God and talk to him. I hate him. F him! Why would he hurt everyone. Why would he allow children to die! why!
I have to talk to God. So much pain.. So much pain! I think he is a coward. He does not have the guts to take care of his people; he lets them die! F him !
And many more things Im going to say to him. Over n over, until I get it out!
What good is a God if he does not save your life. What is the point... So much pain.
I have allot of pain and confusion to get out! I have allot of hell Im going to unleash upon God for what he has done... I want my revenge... Im going to tell him everything...
I won't forgive God if he continues to allow children to be slain in these stupid societies..
God cannot survive without me! He must bend to my will! If he does not, I will give up, and not care what direction I go in. Since God loves me, he will do these things to prove himself to me.
And he will always be under the gun with me! He will be expected to prove himself from now on. He will be whipped into shape and learn how to protect his creations.. I will stand for no less.
He has no business creating us and then letting us die! This is ridiculous. So I have many words to say to his face... Not really, I will bow before him and tell him in a dream..
I do love God, Im just [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed of at him! I need help. What is this bless not curse slop! ( tell the truth, do not lie) ( my feelings are my business, they are not right or wrong, and I will express all of them, I do not need your permission) I plan to bless no one! if you want blessings, ask God, he is the one that can bless. Im just a creature down on earth screaming out for help!.. Its eveil to control people and what they think and what they say!.
I cannot do things alone!
I hope he can forgive me!~
He was not there for me when I was a child! He must prove himself. I have to learn to trust him again; he has to follow through.