from old blog January 21, 2008
Dear Jesus,
I love you! Well, Jesus, you see what a mess I've made of everything. I'm sorry if I handled all this wrong. I just don't know how else I'm supposed to think or handle all this. I can't come to terms that a gift from the Holy Spirit is to be used to spiritually beat people to a pulp. I can't change my opinion based on what man says. I have to stick to the truth shown to me. So, where do I go from here. I feel like I'm in the middle of a door jamb and can't move. Can't go back and can't go on. I pray Father shows me what to do. I hope and pray I didn't let you down. You know how I am. I just felt the need to speak for all those silenced by this issue. I'm trying to examine my intent and I think it's intact. But so much has gotten lost through the emotion of this I feel the need to pray for forgiveness if my intent was not intact. Oh, Lord! I'm so tired! It's not a complaint. It's just that I feel I'm becoming useless again. Please help me deal with all this! I want so much for our Father to show His truth in all this stupid tongue arguement. Don't they understand He can take away their ability to speak in tongues just as easily as He can give me the ability. Abba, Father! It hurts!!
I love you, Jesus
bless you, Jesus
thank you, Jesus
I trust you, Jesus
for I am nothing if not for you
Dear Jesus,
I love you! Well, Jesus, you see what a mess I've made of everything. I'm sorry if I handled all this wrong. I just don't know how else I'm supposed to think or handle all this. I can't come to terms that a gift from the Holy Spirit is to be used to spiritually beat people to a pulp. I can't change my opinion based on what man says. I have to stick to the truth shown to me. So, where do I go from here. I feel like I'm in the middle of a door jamb and can't move. Can't go back and can't go on. I pray Father shows me what to do. I hope and pray I didn't let you down. You know how I am. I just felt the need to speak for all those silenced by this issue. I'm trying to examine my intent and I think it's intact. But so much has gotten lost through the emotion of this I feel the need to pray for forgiveness if my intent was not intact. Oh, Lord! I'm so tired! It's not a complaint. It's just that I feel I'm becoming useless again. Please help me deal with all this! I want so much for our Father to show His truth in all this stupid tongue arguement. Don't they understand He can take away their ability to speak in tongues just as easily as He can give me the ability. Abba, Father! It hurts!!
I love you, Jesus
bless you, Jesus
thank you, Jesus
I trust you, Jesus
for I am nothing if not for you