I have an honest question, and while I know I'm not really supposed to be talking with you guys because I'm not a Christian (Christian only forum), I would really like an answer.
You see, I feel like I'm doing something wrong in life. By believing in nothing, and holding nothing as truth aside from science. I constantly make genuine attempts to adopt some kind of belief in Christianity.
The problem?
Every time I try, I just find it so hard to accept. And this is not a troll, or a flame, or anyhting to impose negative feelings toward someone esle. I truly want to have faith, it's just I don't know how. I tried reading the bible page to page, but I just get lost.
What can one do to believe in something, when everything in their life makes it hard for them to accept?
Can anyone here understand my dillemma? EVERYTHING in my life turns me to atheism. And everytime I even have so much as a thought of accepting Jesus Christ as a savior, I am filled with doubts, embarrasment... even Shame.
I hope someone on here can understand where I am coming from.
A little background. I was born and raised Jewish, and I have been always tought Jewish values. This is what I believe turned me away from God more than anything else. You see, my people do not view God (or at least it doesn't feel this way) as a loving, kind father figure. But as a malicious figure who would send you to an eternity of damnation for a single error. My people are not brought up with the overwelming belief in forgiveness, so I decided early on in my life that I could not subject a God that put such a burdern on his people.
Now as I understand it, Jesus Christ lifted SOME of that burden, by forgiving us our sins.
But why do I find it so hard to believe?
I hope I don't get banned for posting in your Christian Advice forum, I understand that I'm really not supposed to be here. I was just hoping someone could help me out with this dilemma.
Thanks
You see, I feel like I'm doing something wrong in life. By believing in nothing, and holding nothing as truth aside from science. I constantly make genuine attempts to adopt some kind of belief in Christianity.
The problem?
Every time I try, I just find it so hard to accept. And this is not a troll, or a flame, or anyhting to impose negative feelings toward someone esle. I truly want to have faith, it's just I don't know how. I tried reading the bible page to page, but I just get lost.
What can one do to believe in something, when everything in their life makes it hard for them to accept?
Can anyone here understand my dillemma? EVERYTHING in my life turns me to atheism. And everytime I even have so much as a thought of accepting Jesus Christ as a savior, I am filled with doubts, embarrasment... even Shame.
I hope someone on here can understand where I am coming from.
A little background. I was born and raised Jewish, and I have been always tought Jewish values. This is what I believe turned me away from God more than anything else. You see, my people do not view God (or at least it doesn't feel this way) as a loving, kind father figure. But as a malicious figure who would send you to an eternity of damnation for a single error. My people are not brought up with the overwelming belief in forgiveness, so I decided early on in my life that I could not subject a God that put such a burdern on his people.
Now as I understand it, Jesus Christ lifted SOME of that burden, by forgiving us our sins.
But why do I find it so hard to believe?
I hope I don't get banned for posting in your Christian Advice forum, I understand that I'm really not supposed to be here. I was just hoping someone could help me out with this dilemma.
Thanks