Everytime I hear my friends' stories about their vacations/birthday celebrations/family outings and see their happy photos. I just feel so forsaken and forgotten by God and by this world. I have lots of vacation leave, but no trips to plan...I have so much free time after work, but no one to spend it with...
I tell myself that it will be the story of my life from now till the end...days of loneliness, days without anyone to share with, endless days of being with me and myself. I spent so many weekends without having a chance to say a word to anyone, because I don't even make it out of my house. But come Monday, I am "normal" once again...I go to work, I laugh with my colleagues, I complain about work...but at the end of the work day, I just feel so exhausted...many times, my tears just flowed on my way home...
Life is meaningless. I wish I have a chance at happiness and normacy once again...but I guess it will remain just wishful thinking...
I tell myself that it will be the story of my life from now till the end...days of loneliness, days without anyone to share with, endless days of being with me and myself. I spent so many weekends without having a chance to say a word to anyone, because I don't even make it out of my house. But come Monday, I am "normal" once again...I go to work, I laugh with my colleagues, I complain about work...but at the end of the work day, I just feel so exhausted...many times, my tears just flowed on my way home...
Life is meaningless. I wish I have a chance at happiness and normacy once again...but I guess it will remain just wishful thinking...