- Apr 5, 2018
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I have been going through some very tumultuous times as a result of a call received by the Lord, beginning in my 18th year and persisting until now. I am 58 (40years). I have been running from it for a variety of reasons, the greatest of which is my birth family.
This family has been destroyed before it was even formed. You may suggest everyone goes through what I have, and all family is like this. This would be lie, based on ignorance of the full story, which I am writing, and will exceed 1,000 pages when published.
The summary is: Someone said, in writing, multiple times in a day, that my faith is false, my ministry is false, and everything I claim the Holy Spirit is doing in my life is really from Satan. Exact words. Then 14 years later, exact same life situation for me as 2004 on a spiritual level but greatly magnified, during a pure heart attempt at reconciliation after decades of hate in my family, she not only refused my request for forgiveness without rubbing my face in my sin to the point of triggering a PTSD response in me, because I allowed myself to be humiliated a little to restore my birth family.
IN the end, she again said, multiple times, that my faith is false, of Satan, that my ministry is false, of Satan, then multiplied that sin by attributing those words to my dad on his deathbed, and my other sister by way of being her "official" mouth piece in the NEGOTIATION to forgive.
I have all of this in writing by her own hand. I feel she has condemned herself repeatedly to blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, especially when I was using scripture to correct her false judgements and evil venomous accusation that my very faith is false.
I then made a video and posted publicly renouncing my birth name, and condemning my birth family (not Dad), as having committed the unpardonable sin, turning them over to satan, excommunicating them from my life for 60 years of
this.
God is calling me to a marvelous ministry, and I cannot allow my birth family to hold me back from my call again. I claimed Gen 12:3, and I have had 24 hours of pure peace since.
I have documented evidence to support what I presented here but will not publish it for public consumption due to the deeply personal nature of the content.
From a biblical perspective, I excommunicated my unchurched family from the Kingdom of Heaven because despite saying Lord Lord,He told me he never knew them. They will be the example of what is to come, and I will be his shepherd to understand truth.
This family has been destroyed before it was even formed. You may suggest everyone goes through what I have, and all family is like this. This would be lie, based on ignorance of the full story, which I am writing, and will exceed 1,000 pages when published.
The summary is: Someone said, in writing, multiple times in a day, that my faith is false, my ministry is false, and everything I claim the Holy Spirit is doing in my life is really from Satan. Exact words. Then 14 years later, exact same life situation for me as 2004 on a spiritual level but greatly magnified, during a pure heart attempt at reconciliation after decades of hate in my family, she not only refused my request for forgiveness without rubbing my face in my sin to the point of triggering a PTSD response in me, because I allowed myself to be humiliated a little to restore my birth family.
IN the end, she again said, multiple times, that my faith is false, of Satan, that my ministry is false, of Satan, then multiplied that sin by attributing those words to my dad on his deathbed, and my other sister by way of being her "official" mouth piece in the NEGOTIATION to forgive.
I have all of this in writing by her own hand. I feel she has condemned herself repeatedly to blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, especially when I was using scripture to correct her false judgements and evil venomous accusation that my very faith is false.
I then made a video and posted publicly renouncing my birth name, and condemning my birth family (not Dad), as having committed the unpardonable sin, turning them over to satan, excommunicating them from my life for 60 years of
this.
God is calling me to a marvelous ministry, and I cannot allow my birth family to hold me back from my call again. I claimed Gen 12:3, and I have had 24 hours of pure peace since.
I have documented evidence to support what I presented here but will not publish it for public consumption due to the deeply personal nature of the content.
From a biblical perspective, I excommunicated my unchurched family from the Kingdom of Heaven because despite saying Lord Lord,He told me he never knew them. They will be the example of what is to come, and I will be his shepherd to understand truth.