Hi,
I'm not doing well. In fact I don't even know if it's a good idea to ask such questions on a forum because you get so many different
answers/views from different people. But at the same time I feel a strong need to talk to someone about this and get some input.
I'll try to make this short. Yesterday I was listening to a sermon and the speaker quoted from Matthew 10, he that endures til the end will be saved.
He said that this is a warning to christians. He made it look like this is about salvation and that unless you "endure" you're not getting saved!!!!!!
This totally scared me.
Then I read the rest of Matthew 10 and felt even worse.
There are simply SO many statements from Jesus in verses 33-39 which sound so harsh and scary. I really don't know how to deal with this.
I don't know how other christians react to such verses, but I am TOTALLY disturbed and scared by them.
I also cannot make such statements from Jesus fit to other statements which sound totally different.
How, for example, does Jesus saying he will not cast anyone out who comes to him fit together with Jesus saying that if you love your parents more
than him you're not worthy of him?
This stuff simply sounds so harsh.
Then how shall I know if I am "worthy" of Jesus?!?!?
What if Jesus, if He was here on earth, would say to me: Sorry, you're not worthy of me. You're not picking up your cross, you're not dedicated enough,
you're not willing to really suffer for me!?
When I get such thoughts it totally drags me down and scares me and makes me feel totally separated from God.
And this happens ALL THE TIME whenever I read a verse in the bible which sounds scary or which puts pressure on me.
I don't know how to deal with this anymore.
Have you ever heard that a christian is scared of reading in the bible because of all the scary verses?! This is simply crazy.
I have made this experience over the years SO many times. I read in the bible, come across scary verses, then I instantly feel totally miserable
and distanced from God.
Because of this I really don't even dare anymore to read in the bible.
33 But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. (-> is this about salvation?
does this mean if you're held at gunpoint by a terrorist and then you're too afraid to say you're a christian then you'll lose your salvation
and God is done with you?!?!?)
34 Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. (what does this mean? does this mean that Jesus
wants people to get into conflict over faith issues?)
35 For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.
(what does this mean? does this mean that if you're a christian and your parents are not that you should stop obeying them if they somehow hinder
your christian activities, like for example going to church or meeting with other christians??!)
36 And a man's foes shall be they of his own household.
37 He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.
38 And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me. (what does take up your cross even mean? how shall a person
know if she is taking up her cross "enough"? and what does it even mean when you're "not worthy"? is this about salvation??!?!)
39 He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it. (what does this mean? to me it sounds like pressure.
when I read this i feel a lot of pressure. how shall I know if I fulfill these requirements?!)
I'm not doing well. In fact I don't even know if it's a good idea to ask such questions on a forum because you get so many different
answers/views from different people. But at the same time I feel a strong need to talk to someone about this and get some input.
I'll try to make this short. Yesterday I was listening to a sermon and the speaker quoted from Matthew 10, he that endures til the end will be saved.
He said that this is a warning to christians. He made it look like this is about salvation and that unless you "endure" you're not getting saved!!!!!!
This totally scared me.
Then I read the rest of Matthew 10 and felt even worse.
There are simply SO many statements from Jesus in verses 33-39 which sound so harsh and scary. I really don't know how to deal with this.
I don't know how other christians react to such verses, but I am TOTALLY disturbed and scared by them.
I also cannot make such statements from Jesus fit to other statements which sound totally different.
How, for example, does Jesus saying he will not cast anyone out who comes to him fit together with Jesus saying that if you love your parents more
than him you're not worthy of him?
This stuff simply sounds so harsh.
Then how shall I know if I am "worthy" of Jesus?!?!?
What if Jesus, if He was here on earth, would say to me: Sorry, you're not worthy of me. You're not picking up your cross, you're not dedicated enough,
you're not willing to really suffer for me!?
When I get such thoughts it totally drags me down and scares me and makes me feel totally separated from God.
And this happens ALL THE TIME whenever I read a verse in the bible which sounds scary or which puts pressure on me.
I don't know how to deal with this anymore.
Have you ever heard that a christian is scared of reading in the bible because of all the scary verses?! This is simply crazy.
I have made this experience over the years SO many times. I read in the bible, come across scary verses, then I instantly feel totally miserable
and distanced from God.
Because of this I really don't even dare anymore to read in the bible.
33 But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. (-> is this about salvation?
does this mean if you're held at gunpoint by a terrorist and then you're too afraid to say you're a christian then you'll lose your salvation
and God is done with you?!?!?)
34 Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. (what does this mean? does this mean that Jesus
wants people to get into conflict over faith issues?)
35 For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law.
(what does this mean? does this mean that if you're a christian and your parents are not that you should stop obeying them if they somehow hinder
your christian activities, like for example going to church or meeting with other christians??!)
36 And a man's foes shall be they of his own household.
37 He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me.
38 And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me. (what does take up your cross even mean? how shall a person
know if she is taking up her cross "enough"? and what does it even mean when you're "not worthy"? is this about salvation??!?!)
39 He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it. (what does this mean? to me it sounds like pressure.
when I read this i feel a lot of pressure. how shall I know if I fulfill these requirements?!)