Who is telling you natural selection and evolution are better gods than God Almighty? What good have they brought us? No salvation and extinction turning our bones to stone. No wonder you are feeling blah, blah, blah.
Why believe in the god of science - it has brought us atom bombs and global warming and scores of other life deadening gadgets but no salvation. Plus they change their minds on what is 'truth' all the time. Only the God of the Bible is the same today, tomorrow and forever. Science look with their eyes and hear with their ears, but to find God we have to look at the heart of things.
It is true though that as a religion Christianity has little on offer, it is full of half-truths, often very controlling and money hungry and split into thousands of little groups, most claiming salvation is only for those who adhere to their ways of seeing things.
However faith in the Word of God has the power to heal a broken heart and save a lost life from the ruins. The power of God is that He is the truth of love, and that even though love is crucified time and again by the religious leaders and this harsh controlling world, God's love is resurrected in the hearts of those who walk by faith in Jesus rather than by sight.
Honest faith in Jesus Christ brings new life, strive after that, and let the gods of natural selection and evolution go extinct instead.
Unbelief.
Your voice turned me utterly insane,
believing your suggestions
thinking there is no God.
For you betrayed my Good Life,
pushing me into that bottomless pit,
into fiery Hell for years on end.
Flying right through my reality,
your miserable voice dividing
myself against myself,
your taunts attacking faithful self,
hopelessness cutting me up,
your lies barring access to true Life!
No faith feeding my starving soul,
instead doubt, confusion and terror,
false evidence locking my hopes away,
devoid from true self or any good thing,
torturing me in those dark dungeons,
you only ever set out to murder me!