what are you feeling right now? (2)

[FaithPrevails]

HUGE BLOW TO MY SELF ESTEEM HAPPENED TODAY

I was walking toward the library when I saw a woman across the street, sort of walking alongside me but not exactly in line with me. she had this dress on which made her look all curvy and all that and she looked "perfect" and she was walking past 2 construction guys and they looked at her, and it just killed me. I suffer with a lot of weight problems and fat rolls in unconventional places, and as a result, the pants I wear don't look "curvy" enough because I have to choose comfort instead, and my shirt doesn't show my figure enough either so yeah, it is impossible to feel OK when I see a man checking out another woman over me - do you realize how freakin horrible, shapless, worthless...OK I know everyone here is going to say it doesn't matter but there's no guy here that would choose me over her...assuming we were otherwise exactly alike...I'm just totally disgusted with myself and I hate myself and I just want a "body" and I DON'T HAVE ONE.

You don't know that someone wouldn't choose you over her. Curves come and go - you want someone that would be interested in you whether you had curves, rolls, or were skin & bones. Not some guy that would check out random women walking down the street - b/c then you would worry that he was checking out every other woman walking down the street, too.

 

[ChrisBot]

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