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They told me I could bring someone. They all bring their whole families (because they have kids).
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Yeah I don't think of it as sweeping it under the rug because behind closed doors he and I do discuss it for the purposes of working through it.
I look at it more like moving forward.
Closing a chapter.
Forgiving but not forgetting... I remember what happened.
But I don't feel like it's healthy to bring it forward into all of my future endeavors
like going to a church or a small group and immediately launching into the dark stuff. I literally have done that before.
Come into a new place and been like "hi, I'm <bluegreysky>, and I partied too much" like it was some 12-step thing and it was a small group or whatever.
I'd like to go into the next parts of my life and let's say.... emanate positive things and then once I know people more intimately, I might talk about the bad stuff from an aspect of what I learned.
So be inauthentic, then once you can control the narrative of your past so that it better fits your inauthenticity, trickle it out in a way that doesn’t ruin your image.
That sounds like a great way to show yourself to be as giving, open, endearing, genuine, and approachable as this girl you don’t like.
Of course that means you now can’t get help in the context of your needs and, when your stable, give authentic helpful advice to the next you who comes to church looking for help... But trade offs are what they are.
I think you interpreted what she was saying differently than I. I don't believe she's advocating for inauthenticity. Maybe I read it wrong, but I interpreted it as her simply wanting to establish trust before sharing more personal details about her life experiences, or establish an environment or setting where it's appropriate to discuss such issues. I believe most people are like that. If, say, I'm having a very bad day and I'm out grocery shopping and I cross paths with someone he acknowledges me with a smile, I'm not going to display what I'm feeling by frowning at them. They might take it the wrong way, not understanding what I've been through that day. I'm not being fake when I smile back; I'm just being polite and exercising proper etiquette.
I AM doing those things sheesh
Interesting examples and scenario...I’m going to give you a metaphor.
Let’s say you work in a grocery store.
And I come into your store and fill my cart with fruits and veggies. Then i decide since I’ve gotten a healthy shopping list, I would like one treat. So I go in the candy aisle. You happen to be the employee working in the candy aisle. So I ask for some help picking something out. You immediately start yelling at me that I need to eat healthy. Meanwhile, I have that whole cart full of fruits and veggies.
Ok.... the cart of healthy things is me getting my life on track. The candy is me trying to relax a little and also make friends and maybe it’s not the most healthy but I want to follow a few things someone else did that worked and then have some good times.
You are yelling at me for wanting to have the good times, relax etc... while I am already filling my “cart” with healthy choices.
Sure, a few months ago I was in a bad place. This has happened before- I would get into a downspiral and things looked bleak, and then God would deliver me out of it very quickly and I’d make a swift comeback. The idea here is to stop going into a downspiral. The only reason I seem all over the place is because of how swiftly things changed from bad to good. I don’t come onto this forum and talk about every little thing, I just come for advice now and then about the sticky stuff. So of course there would
Seem to be holes in my lifestyle.
If you could see it day to day in person, you’d see I am doing most of the things.
I hope you manage to have a restful lead up to your expected joyful event.I am pregnant after all
So yeah like very moody and a lot of things upset me .... including all of this berating.
Maybe you can delete the first post? if not, maybe send a message to a mod.How do I delete this thread?