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promise22
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I'm a Christian with BPD I have a boyfriend who is unsaved and despite my plea for us not to have sex until marriage we ended up having sex Friday night and on top of that it was unprotected. I just could not say no to him, not that he forced me but I didn't have the power to tell him to stop I let it happen. I don't know if I love him any more after what we did, I feel so empty inside and I feel like I really let God down. I know I should be running to God but I'm reluctant to and am afraid he may just punish me. I hate myself. I wish I were never born.