This is my first post and I hope that I am making the right choice with talking about this.
I am 26 years old and I was sexually abused by my now ex-step dad from the time I was in Kindergarten all the way to my freshman year when he left my mom. I tried telling my mom when I was younger and she never believed me. I have kept it a secret and it is slowly tearing me apart. I can't have relationship last more than a week because I get scared and push the person away. I feel so dirty and all I can think about is cutting. I have tried to end my life a few times and only got pushed away from my family. My mom always told me that I was just trying to get attention and everything I have said to her about him was just a lie. It hurts so bad knowing that your mom does not believe that her ex-husband did this to me.
I have no communication with the person but he does work at a local christian radio station around town. I HATE that he works there and it makes me angry at God.
I just need someone to talk to. Can someone help me? I have heard from people that talking about things like this is the best thing, but I do not have anyone in my life that I trust with this. I want to change my ways. I don't want to cut anymore but that seems to be my only true friend I have.
Thanks,
Kati
I am 26 years old and I was sexually abused by my now ex-step dad from the time I was in Kindergarten all the way to my freshman year when he left my mom. I tried telling my mom when I was younger and she never believed me. I have kept it a secret and it is slowly tearing me apart. I can't have relationship last more than a week because I get scared and push the person away. I feel so dirty and all I can think about is cutting. I have tried to end my life a few times and only got pushed away from my family. My mom always told me that I was just trying to get attention and everything I have said to her about him was just a lie. It hurts so bad knowing that your mom does not believe that her ex-husband did this to me.
I have no communication with the person but he does work at a local christian radio station around town. I HATE that he works there and it makes me angry at God.
I just need someone to talk to. Can someone help me? I have heard from people that talking about things like this is the best thing, but I do not have anyone in my life that I trust with this. I want to change my ways. I don't want to cut anymore but that seems to be my only true friend I have.
Thanks,
Kati