I was raped about 2.5 years ago, and when growing up I suffered from a lot of mental abuse by one of my parents as well as child on child sexual abuse at the age of 5. All this has lead to me being on high allert at all times, constantly checking that no one is following me and being terrified of getting attacked by a stranger. Some days this gets so bad I'm scared to leave my apartment to go to the grocery store just a block away. I live in a very safe neighbourhood with just houses for students and a lot of families with children, so there's really nothing to be afraid of. Still I'm constantly scared and having panic attacks and dissociating.
My doctor and therapist tell me to just go outside despite my fear and this way desensitize myself to these situations, but I feel like they're making it sounds so much easier than it is. I don't want to be taking anxiety meds just to go outside.
Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with this? Anyone who's been in a similar situation but gotten through it?
My doctor and therapist tell me to just go outside despite my fear and this way desensitize myself to these situations, but I feel like they're making it sounds so much easier than it is. I don't want to be taking anxiety meds just to go outside.
Does anyone have any tips on how to deal with this? Anyone who's been in a similar situation but gotten through it?