I would encourage you to get help, this type of thing is knocking hard
on the door of being abusive and if left unchecked you could go on
to abuse any woman.
I have noticed a common theme in your threads lately-- pointing at a heart issue,
Bridge you should repent of such actions against women and work on applying forgiveness toward anybody who has hurt you. God rightly judges, so trust Him
to do His "job".
I know what it's like to be treated badly, I've been shunned, had rocks thrown at me,
called all kinds of names because I'm black. I grew up in a racist area and if it hadn't of
been for the Lord and me coming to know Him at such a young age, I shutter to think
what type of woman I would've turned out to be.
I clung to God, I talked to Him about everything and He saw me through many dark days/years.
Be obedient to the Lord and to upholding His Word in your life each day; connect yourself
with mature Christians who can pray for you, encourage and mentor you.
Vengeance belongs to the Lord.
Find a better way to deal with your anger/resentment, you don't take it out on
others.
I urge you again, seek counseling ASAP!
