Well, I guess the news wasn't what I was expecting......I had a CT scan last week and they see something odd on an enlarged lymph node in my chest, it could be one of 2 things, 1 to me is no worry, the other of course is cancer AGAIN. Last March they took my whole lung out, my cancer was 1A, no lymph node involvement at all, PLUS I did chemo! This is so upsetting, it is hard to even swallow. I go in the AM tomorrow to have a PET scan, they say this will tell them yes or no to cancer, then Monday I meet my Dr. again to discuss things. He said no surgery if cancer but radiation. just the word cancer chokes me, as if I haven't had my share of it. I have yet to find someone to talk to that has had 2 different kinds of cancer in their life, breast at 34, then lung last year at 52(unrelated to breast AND I do not smoke) ARRGH!!!!!!!!!!
I think I am scared but frustrated, this year recovering from having a lung removed has been awful, BUT you look to the future and say, it's OK, cause we took the safe route and the cancer is GONE!!! So........what is this mess now?
I am writing ypu dear friends on here, you mean sooooo much to me, it is strange how you can feel so close to people you know, but really don't KNOW! But I think we actually do get to know each other and our dear doggies very well.........You guys were there for NeNe, which was awful and I feel I needed you now!!! The friendship and prayers mean everything and do wonderful things, I think we all know that!
I have my wonderful kids (human) and doggies, and as most of you know no husband as of 3 months ago.....but even that's OK, I don't care about him, he is the loser, walking out on me and this family is HIS loss, especially after 28 years, so there mean man!! HAH!!
I just felt the need for my friends to know and if you will say a prayer for me, I know they work!
Love to you all....
Love, BeBe and NeNe's Gamma
Thank you sooo much
sandi
I think I am scared but frustrated, this year recovering from having a lung removed has been awful, BUT you look to the future and say, it's OK, cause we took the safe route and the cancer is GONE!!! So........what is this mess now?
I am writing ypu dear friends on here, you mean sooooo much to me, it is strange how you can feel so close to people you know, but really don't KNOW! But I think we actually do get to know each other and our dear doggies very well.........You guys were there for NeNe, which was awful and I feel I needed you now!!! The friendship and prayers mean everything and do wonderful things, I think we all know that!
I have my wonderful kids (human) and doggies, and as most of you know no husband as of 3 months ago.....but even that's OK, I don't care about him, he is the loser, walking out on me and this family is HIS loss, especially after 28 years, so there mean man!! HAH!!
I just felt the need for my friends to know and if you will say a prayer for me, I know they work!
Love to you all....
Love, BeBe and NeNe's Gamma
Thank you sooo much
sandi