My dad went on another tangent today about how he won’t tolerate Christianity in this house and that he will go to Pakistan rather than tolerate it. He seemed serious. This is not the first time he's made this statement. I want to believe he's crying wolf but I can't be too sure anymore. I pretended to be serious with him in the sense that I told him that he needs to figure out who will help board him on the plane, get off the plane, wheel through the airport, and where to stay when he gets to Pakistan, because I won't be there. I also asked him what he’s going to do about the plot of land next to Mama, since he was supposed to be buried next to her, and he said I can have it. I told him that Mama already didn’t feel loved (by him) when she was alive, and this would be the ultimate straw. It didn’t really move him that much. I want to take into account that it’s in the middle of that “time of the month,” when even my dad starts acting strange, but even if he “doesn’t mean what he says,” it sounds too serious for me to ignore. I know he doesn’t have the physical strength to do all this, but the determination is quite strong, and I seriously think he’s contemplating it. I feel like he’s willing to “abandon” me and even Mama’s grave for this Islam garbage.