I mean I'm not trying well in a way I might as well just come out and say I'm trying to defend the sinful man I am. If the bible as a whole and everything in it on correcting to telling us not to be deceived......Who makes it to heaven.....If I grow in a area and explode in another with defending my sinful ways.....I am scared for myself because I no longer know of it was OCD or Gods ultimate warning to fully repent....I struggle with depression. I use medication the wrong way to get rid of the sorrow instead of turning to the good book. I don't go to church were I need fellowship. I fear just like everyone else but I feel alone, a mess that cannot be fixed.....If the road is narrow and few find it that is a very discouraging truth......There are so many preachers who in the face of fear do as God says......And I'm here just trying to be happy.