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Christownsme
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I’m in a major spiritual battle right now. I have dealt with my body telling me something in the last few months. My nerves are so tense, my stomach always hurts, and I’ve had diarrhea for this whole time. Mentally and emotionally I’m a mess. And spiritually, I think God is doing some kind of work in my heart and mind, while my enemy seeks to devour me..
It’s all a complicated progression; and I won’t explain exactly everything that’s been going thru my mind and heart – I can’t remember everything anyway. Every day my mood changes several times. And what I think I believe and whether I think I have faith at all changes every day too.
But I will continue to pray… “Jesus, help me believe in your gospel of good news for me.”
Have I really believed before? I don’t know. Have I really had faith in Him? I don’t know. I haven’t been able to believe like a child yet. I’m definitely ready to though.
It’s all a complicated progression; and I won’t explain exactly everything that’s been going thru my mind and heart – I can’t remember everything anyway. Every day my mood changes several times. And what I think I believe and whether I think I have faith at all changes every day too.
But I will continue to pray… “Jesus, help me believe in your gospel of good news for me.”
Have I really believed before? I don’t know. Have I really had faith in Him? I don’t know. I haven’t been able to believe like a child yet. I’m definitely ready to though.
