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[urbanfaerie]

so pathetic.. coming to a message board, cuz there no one else to go to..

he just left. i was sick, and he stuck around. now that im getting better..he just up and leaves..
leaves.
leaves.

everybody leaves me



seriously can't deal right now.

my only real friend left.
i want to leave to.



cant breathe.d
pathetic, i am, i am.

 

[Salsa_1960]

Hi.

 

[smash_kate]

a guy left me once and it took a long time to get over it..but from now on i'm only going for mad christians

 

[Salsa_1960]

I guess "HI" sounds dumb. I just didn't know what to say. Wanted you to know though that I cared.

 

[urbanfaerie]

im srry.

i thought i might try o vent..not working.f

forget it.
i dont exist.
im nothing, but ****.
block me too.

 

[Newsboy1900]

well it will be better when you wake up always is thats why i dont ever have friends not that i wouldent like them but when one comes ill have him/her for now im alone i have came to the conclusion that being alone isent that bad because im not really alone

 

[TheOriginalWhitehorse]

I'm not sure exactly what happened, but please understand that you have a lot of wonderful people who care about you here. I rarely see this kind of support and caring at a message board. Please don't let the actions of one person at a particular time cause you to sum up your entire being in it. You're the only you who ever existed. You're the only one with your set of talents, experiences, and wisdom to bring to the world. Someone getting up and leaving doesn't change any of that. But it gets even better:

You are an image-bearer of God.

 

[wvmtnkid]

You aren't pathetic, hun. You are human. It's ok to be sad. Just don't let your life and your value be set by this person. You have alot of value. Just because you are you.

 

[urbanfaerie]

i thought that when eu start to get btter, startt to confide in pl, things start to look up?

all its done is tooken away the only thing i had going for me.

i got nothing.
i thoiught god only give u what u can handle?
im not strong enuff to hold on anymoe.

i never was strong to begin with.
ii was... it never would have happened to begin with.
weak.
im dsgusting and weak, no wonder he left.


i;d leave me too

 

[wvmtnkid]

Look at it this way, if he isn't reliable enough to be there when you need him, then he isn't someone that you can count on and he really isn't someone that you need to be with. Someone who really loves you and cares for you will be there when you need them. In the good and the bad.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

*hug*
You've still got your cheesecake.
Whatever that's worth.

 

[TheOriginalWhitehorse]

i thought that when eu start to get btter, startt to confide in pl, things start to look up?

all its done is tooken away the only thing i had going for me.

i got nothing.
i thoiught god only give u what u can handle?
im not strong enuff to hold on anymoe.

i never was strong to begin with.
ii was... it never would have happened to begin with.
weak.
im dsgusting and weak, no wonder he left.


i;d leave me too

Well, you mentioned it was when you got better that he left you. So that might reveal something. Perhaps a codependence? If that's the case, maybe it wasn't a healthy relationship to begin with...And if you're getting better, this opens the door for relationships that are healthy. All you need is time.

 

[Dawn Marie]

I'm sorry Shawna... I didn't see this thread until now...

I'm still here, if you need me... which you probably don't. But I am...

 

[urbanfaerie]

orryyy ppl. ix shouldnt made sa threa. toodk away what i usued to use, meh..forgot what iw as ssyaiuing.

feele heady.
s
u can serasee thi post, sim sorry, to cause nuisnance..e to everybofdy.

 

[wvmtnkid]

It's ok to reach out to someone when you are sad. That's what we are here for! To lift you up and encourage you. And if nothing else, to talk to you when you are feeling down.

 

[Deamiter]

One thing you should NEVER think is that you're just bugging us or that we're only here to fix you - then forget. Many of us are here because we've been where you are, and if you were here (in real life) I for one would stay up all night to be your friend. Perhaps I cannot help anybody (I'm neither a therapist, nor God) but I care more than I ever thought possible when I was there, and I can't just say nothing!

 

[Stanfi]

orryyy ppl. ix shouldnt made sa threa. toodk away what i usued to use, meh..forgot what iw as ssyaiuing.

feele heady.
s
u can serasee thi post, sim sorry, to cause nuisnance..e to everybofdy.

Urbanfarie,

Don't worry about reaching out to people when you need someone. That's why God put us all here. To help each other. The scripture instructs us to "bear one anothers burdens". We all need each other. Like wvmntkid said, if that guy wasn't willing to stick by you always, then you don't need him. God will supply you with better people, if you will just trust him.

 

[cyberwing]

Not pathetic precious one, HURT! Your heart is broken and unfortunately this is a part of life. What you need to realize is that beyond the hurt lays a new blessing waiting for you. It is YOU who must pick yourself up, be brave and determined and move forward even though your heart is aching. I'm so sorry your heart has been broken.... I can tell you this, this person did not see the diamond you are hidden beneath. The Lord has to polish us before we begin to shine. Polishing hurts too! You are a wonderful, talented member of the Body of Christ and you have love and abilities to share with the rest of us.
The Christian keeps picking themselves up, even when they get knocked down because we know our Lord. We know HE is faithful and that His promises and blessings are just waiting for us. We may get KNOCKED down but we don't STAY down!!! If you just need someone to talk to, feel free to PM me anytime precious one!
{{{BIG CYBER HUGS}}}
~Cyberwing

 

[* kittie *]

i'm not sure what to say, but...

you're not a nuisance hun.

 

[Dawn Marie]

No, you're definitely not.

I hope you are okay...