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[beetlequeendiva]

Hi I'm Vicki, I'm 22 - I come from Scotland but live in England right now. I have been struggling with depression, OCD and various other things for 16 months now. I do SI but I haven't done in about 6 weeks - it's on and off. I have also tried, in the past, to kill myself but haven't done for 13 months.I am under the care of a Psychiatrist, a psychologist and a counsellor - I also have 2 adults helping me. This is the first day I've been on this part of the site - i didn't know it existed. Thank you all for being brave enough to share your stories, God Bless xx

 

[ninetails390]

Hey Vicki! Nice to have you here! (Oh, by the way... On your signature it says you can't lick your elbow... Well, I can! I tried when I saw your signature! I may have nearly rearranged my joints in the process, but I licked my elbow! Sorry... Just my random input...)

 

[katylees]

maybe u have a long tongue hehe

 

[masrhy]

Hiya my name is laura otherwise known as Masrhy

i started SI at around 13 years of age i was just so depressed i hated my self and people around me were not helping me at all they just didn't understand


i haven't done it since November 2004 last year which is when i found God and i believe he has helped me through the rough times
so i hope that i won't do it no more


if anyone wants to talk to me at any time feel free to PM or add me to MSN i will try my best to comfort or support you


all my love masrhyx

 

[Bevlina]

That is so kind of you Mas!!
God Bless your sweet and kind intentions.

 

[jarshwoo]

Hi my name is Josh and I have recently recovered from Self-Mutilation. I was asked not to talk about my forms of self mutilation. I was into various forms such as cutting, burning, and smashing things on my head. I became a Christian in 2002 and gave everything of my past life up but my old friends. It took me three years to figure out this was the root of my problem because I always wanted to show off in front of them. I showed off by my evil acts of self-mutilation. I am not saying everyone but alot of us do it for the attention but try to come up with othere reasons. I had alot of deep issues but I would always beat around the bush with family and doctors. I wanted help but I also enjoyed the attention that I was getting. It was the wrong kind of attention but for someone who is lonely and needs love it is a desperate means for attention but it always works. Jesus is my Psychologist now and he can cure anything for us if we are just willing to turn it over to him and have faith that he will take care of it for us.
I always humble myself before Jesus for I know that he has overcome the self-mutilation for me. I got nowhere on my own and all the medication only helped me cope with the public humilitation. People used to tell me I was sick and it got to the point where I knew I was sick but once again I enjoyed the attention. I was desperate for love and this was the only way I felt I could receive it.

Severe mental illness runs in my family. Some people call it a generational curse and this is what I believed for so long. I just accepted the mental illness and thought I would be like this the rest of my life. I was often in my own world and often got caught talking to myself in public and had alter egos. The major strongholds in my life were paranoid schizophrenia, depression, personality disorder, mood swings, and severe anxiety attacks. I was on so much medication that it turned me into a zombie and my mind was mush. Combined with drugs and alcohol the situation only got worse. One point of advice I have for everyone is who are you hanging out with. Breaking away from old non-Christian friends was the hardest thing for me. I thought I was turning my back on them. We can still love them but old non-christian friends can bring us down. I am not saying to stop hanging out with all non-christians but if there is someone that is a negative influence consider avoiding them for a while until you are stronger and can face your own issue of cutting. Thank you for your time.

 

[20misti05]

Hey all--this is Misti! I'm a 17 year old girl who has been clinically depressed since about 5th or 6th grade, has always been really anxious, and has SI'ed for 3 1/2 years. I also have recently acquired some OCD traits, but I have not yet been diagnosed. This is all due to my early childhood--my biological mother was a druggie and when I was 1 1/2, she gave us up to the state. I spent the next 2 years in 4 different foster homes and the children's home until I was adopted by a Christian family when I was 3 1/2. But the instability during those years left a deep scar on my psyche [soul] and it manifested itself later on through the depression, anxiety, SI, and possibly OCD.
I am currently under the care of a psychiatrist and a Christian counselor. Things are looking a lot better now, but please continue to pray for me! Thanks a lot!!
Misti

 

[always_hope]

Hi, everyone. Call me Hope... it's not my real name but it's what I am concentrating on every day, so it's what I want to be called.

I have SI'd for about ten years, if not more, and am trying to stop. I've done pretty well but slide back when things aren't going well. I've been a member of a couple of groups or so and the fact that they weren't Christian-based bothered me. So you can imagine how glad I am to have found a Christian place for people dealing with SI.

I now have 12 days SI free. I had a lot more before that but I slipped up and have to start at the beginning to be honest about it.

I look forward to getting to know all of you. May God bless you all!