I've just experienced, not for the first time God answer an imprecatory prayer. I've seen people manipulating people into sin. Telling them not to listen to me regarding living a godly life. They say it is not necessary & they go out of their way to make sure others do not listen to me. I've seen people who were excited about following God & growing become embarrassed becaused of the pressure brought to bear on them. They especially love to convince people that I am not living a consecrated life but I am in actuality a lesbian, even though not one in practice, I love to undress women & imagine having sex with them. I hope this is not too graphic but it is what I've been going through.
I've prayed for years for their repentance & for God to bring them to shame. You would not believe all I've been through. I left my small island nation but that has not stopped them from similarly contacting people here where I am still surrounded by island people to keep this up. It's like Paul, wherever he went the religious people would find out where he was & get on a boat to follow & cause him trouble. Whenever people were listening they would rile them up against him. I wish I had the impact of Paul not just the suffering.
Anyway, there are a few times when things got extremely difficult for me. There was a point when my life was truly in danger, I kid you not. People were threatening me & acting like it was the will of God because the pastors would give their approval & probably a government job or promotion. During really difficult times I would fast, many times 40 days. It seems I was always fasting. There is not one time when I fasted crying out to God to save me that someone in this mob did not pass away. Never the people I thought should leave the planet, it seems the most influential. Until last week.
I always prayed to God to let me know whenever judgement fell on anyone involved. I'm now out of the Bahamas & in the US. I still feel their effects to a point. I mean the police are not riding behind me laughing every time I go outdoors. The main person that instigated all of this was a woman who I once thought of as my best friend. We went to the same high school, she joined me at my church, she got to know my family & slept by her family. So she was most effective to tell people she knew me & misrepresent every thing I said & every intention behind it. My abstinence was simply due to the fact I did not like men touching me. I was odd in the Bahamas no matter what church you go to. It is unheard of, women get everything through their sleeping partners.
She started trouble with my family & church & everywhere I went. She was extremely charismatic & a born leader. People gravitated to her. She was very good at manipulating people & getting close to those in authority, which she always did. Every pastor, government leaders, managers etc.. She gained a lot of friends & money, travelled around the world every few months. She would love to visit me wherever I was to let me know how great her life was & how I should learn to submit - the word they loved to use. Compromising she said was just learning how to get along with others. I could not go anywhere & she did not find a way to contact me, even here in Florida. I turned down any invitation to communicate she meant only evil. She was a sociopath & loved causing pain & feeling a sense of power over others.
I just constantly brought this up to God that she would not leave me alone & begged Him to answer. Let me know when You do, Father, was my prayer.
I was drawn to this article in the news that did not really interest me but it kept bugging me. After seeing it again last week I decided to find more info on this small engine plane crash. It was on the island of Mayaguana where she was born & I visited with her. There are few families there so the last names I could usually connect with someone I knew. I looked to see that she had died in a truck that the planes' wing hit with her husband & stepmother. She had so many friends her funeral will be huge. However, she will never find out where I am again. The dead have no knowledge of what is going on in the land of the living. I think right now she is finding out how true her salvation was.
Now, do you think that is mean or just facts. Over ten years of this woman bothering me. It was far too long & spoke to her to show her that the pastors approval does not amount to salvation. As David mourned for Saul, I cried all day & feel like crying again, now. Heaven was not her home.
I've prayed for years for their repentance & for God to bring them to shame. You would not believe all I've been through. I left my small island nation but that has not stopped them from similarly contacting people here where I am still surrounded by island people to keep this up. It's like Paul, wherever he went the religious people would find out where he was & get on a boat to follow & cause him trouble. Whenever people were listening they would rile them up against him. I wish I had the impact of Paul not just the suffering.
Anyway, there are a few times when things got extremely difficult for me. There was a point when my life was truly in danger, I kid you not. People were threatening me & acting like it was the will of God because the pastors would give their approval & probably a government job or promotion. During really difficult times I would fast, many times 40 days. It seems I was always fasting. There is not one time when I fasted crying out to God to save me that someone in this mob did not pass away. Never the people I thought should leave the planet, it seems the most influential. Until last week.
I always prayed to God to let me know whenever judgement fell on anyone involved. I'm now out of the Bahamas & in the US. I still feel their effects to a point. I mean the police are not riding behind me laughing every time I go outdoors. The main person that instigated all of this was a woman who I once thought of as my best friend. We went to the same high school, she joined me at my church, she got to know my family & slept by her family. So she was most effective to tell people she knew me & misrepresent every thing I said & every intention behind it. My abstinence was simply due to the fact I did not like men touching me. I was odd in the Bahamas no matter what church you go to. It is unheard of, women get everything through their sleeping partners.
She started trouble with my family & church & everywhere I went. She was extremely charismatic & a born leader. People gravitated to her. She was very good at manipulating people & getting close to those in authority, which she always did. Every pastor, government leaders, managers etc.. She gained a lot of friends & money, travelled around the world every few months. She would love to visit me wherever I was to let me know how great her life was & how I should learn to submit - the word they loved to use. Compromising she said was just learning how to get along with others. I could not go anywhere & she did not find a way to contact me, even here in Florida. I turned down any invitation to communicate she meant only evil. She was a sociopath & loved causing pain & feeling a sense of power over others.
I just constantly brought this up to God that she would not leave me alone & begged Him to answer. Let me know when You do, Father, was my prayer.
I was drawn to this article in the news that did not really interest me but it kept bugging me. After seeing it again last week I decided to find more info on this small engine plane crash. It was on the island of Mayaguana where she was born & I visited with her. There are few families there so the last names I could usually connect with someone I knew. I looked to see that she had died in a truck that the planes' wing hit with her husband & stepmother. She had so many friends her funeral will be huge. However, she will never find out where I am again. The dead have no knowledge of what is going on in the land of the living. I think right now she is finding out how true her salvation was.
Now, do you think that is mean or just facts. Over ten years of this woman bothering me. It was far too long & spoke to her to show her that the pastors approval does not amount to salvation. As David mourned for Saul, I cried all day & feel like crying again, now. Heaven was not her home.