Congrats SOS! I hope one day I can get sober to. It's just taken over so much of my life. I'm hanging around with people I would never hang around with, doing things I never use to do, just living a life I never wanted to live. I'm stripping, I'm just so far from what I want to be. I feel like there is no point sometimes.
My family is Muslim. I was raised Muslim for most of my life. I don't practice anymore so you could probably call me an agnostic or an atheist right now. I am open to any religion really. I was born in Bosnia so I've been exposed to Christianity living there and here in the United States. My boyfriend use to be Christian so he has told me a bit about it to. So I would be open to Christianity.
I am attracted to Christianity because it seems more open to me about recovering from addiction. I'm dead to my family because of what has happened and it's so hard. It's hard knowing I can never atone for my mistakes in there eyes. Christianity doesn't seem as unforgiving as Islam can be.
I know I'm really, really, really sinning. It becomes a long spiral down. I just feel like I can't stop. I don't want to go to hell though and I don't want to die. So something has to give. I just feel powerless to save myself. Seems like the world hates me and just wants me to go away.
It's not about a religion Emira, its about Jesus Christ, He is alive and He is God, He has died for the sins of the world and He wants you to call on Him.
for the same Lord over all is rich to all who call upon Him.
13For “whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:13)
Religion cant save you, rules and regulations cant save you, even giving up sinning (although that is part of it) cant save you. There is only One who can save you and make you new and that is the Lord Jesus Christ, He alone came to set the prisoner of sin free.
Sin is real, death is real and hell is real, God must punish sin because He is holy, Jesus Christ stepped in for us and took that wrath, He stayed (He did not have too) on the cross and poured out every ounce of His blood so that he could cover our sin and declare us righteous in His sight.
It sounds complicated, but it really isn't Jesus came to earth because He loves us and wants us to be free from sins power and from its penalty, He came to offer forgiveness for the sins we have committed. God is holy (this is a point you must see), He is completely separate from this world, He is pure, (their is no sin or evil in Him) and what the Bible tells us also is that He is love: "He who does not love does not know God, for God is love." (1 John 4:8)
Because God is love He sent Jesus Christ (who is God the Son) to die in the place of sinful man who could not save themselves (because we are evil).
Emira, the most important thing that you could ever do in your life (eternity) is to call on the name of the one true God. Call on the Lord Jesus Christ to save you, to forgive you and to give you eternal life. He will if you ask Him and when you do, ask Him that He will grant you repentance from all of your sin. He loves you and He wants to save you, but you must leave your sin behind, you can not take it with you in this holy relationship with God. Ask Him to free you from the bondage of sin in your life and He will, His blood was shed for this.
May God bless you and if you do not have one yet, buy a bible and start reading it as soon as you can, start with the book of John.
In the love of Christ, Joshua
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
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John 14:6
for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,
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Romans 3:23
because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes and is justified, and with the mouth one confesses and is saved. For the Scripture says, “Everyone who believes in him will not be put to shame.” For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, bestowing his riches on all who call on him. For “everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”
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Romans 10:9-13
For God has not destined us for wrath, but to obtain salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for us so that whether we are awake or asleep we might live with him.
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1 Thessalonians 5:9-10
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.
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John 3:16-17