but can't insult God by using that word to describe myself. I believe in the Biblical God, but that doesn't make me a Christian.
I look at the world and see where atheists are coming from. Everything is weird in the Bible.. it just doesn't seem to line up with what I'm seeing. I've just seen countless miracles in my own life. I know I am suppose to follow the Bible and be a representation of Christ. I just seem to need to fit in with what the world is telling me, when I know from countless things that the God of the Bible exists, whether people understand it or not.
My biggest concern is, if I ever come back to trying to letting God guide my steps, is that I'll fall back into that everyone is damned rut. The rut where I see everyone as this lost cause and all I can do is pray. I feel so hopeless.. when I know they've been shown enough themselves. There's no denying any of the Bible. You see these guys like Ben Carson and Mike Huckabee disgrace the faith. I just wish I could be a loner Christian, since I can't seem to let people meet the standards I have for Christians. I always say either that bit about how only a few shall enter Heaven is really true.. or it's all make believe, because, honestly, most Christians are so bad at being Christian it goes beyond the "We're all sinners" thing.
It's just I feel like I can't save the world.. and that stops me before I can even begin. Is this post rhetorical? Am I really looking for answers? Please advise me in any way you can. Thank you.
-Trevor
I look at the world and see where atheists are coming from. Everything is weird in the Bible.. it just doesn't seem to line up with what I'm seeing. I've just seen countless miracles in my own life. I know I am suppose to follow the Bible and be a representation of Christ. I just seem to need to fit in with what the world is telling me, when I know from countless things that the God of the Bible exists, whether people understand it or not.
My biggest concern is, if I ever come back to trying to letting God guide my steps, is that I'll fall back into that everyone is damned rut. The rut where I see everyone as this lost cause and all I can do is pray. I feel so hopeless.. when I know they've been shown enough themselves. There's no denying any of the Bible. You see these guys like Ben Carson and Mike Huckabee disgrace the faith. I just wish I could be a loner Christian, since I can't seem to let people meet the standards I have for Christians. I always say either that bit about how only a few shall enter Heaven is really true.. or it's all make believe, because, honestly, most Christians are so bad at being Christian it goes beyond the "We're all sinners" thing.
It's just I feel like I can't save the world.. and that stops me before I can even begin. Is this post rhetorical? Am I really looking for answers? Please advise me in any way you can. Thank you.
-Trevor