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Hosannainthehighest
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Is is wrong to rely on your husband to give you the emotional reassurance you might need? I think there is something wrong with me, but then that's a horrible thought, what if there is something wrong with me? What then? Are my needs that off balance?
I am hurting so much, and I don't know what to do to help myself. I have already done a few external things that are supposed to help. eg: medication, a therapist.....but to be honest I am worse! I am crying more and more vulnerable than ever.....My husband doesnt know how to support me, and I feel so alone. The distressing thing for me is that his communication helps me, and when he chooses not to give that, I get panicked and then I get upset by myself..... I wonder if it's not fair to put this pressure on him, I am confused and lonely.....2 days ago I was loved and happy....I hate this rollercoaster that is my life.
Most of the time I am the understanding one, the one that listens to others point of view and can hear what they are experiencing...I think I need to be validated by him somehow, but then it doesnt always happen....
I am hurting so much, and I don't know what to do to help myself. I have already done a few external things that are supposed to help. eg: medication, a therapist.....but to be honest I am worse! I am crying more and more vulnerable than ever.....My husband doesnt know how to support me, and I feel so alone. The distressing thing for me is that his communication helps me, and when he chooses not to give that, I get panicked and then I get upset by myself..... I wonder if it's not fair to put this pressure on him, I am confused and lonely.....2 days ago I was loved and happy....I hate this rollercoaster that is my life.
Most of the time I am the understanding one, the one that listens to others point of view and can hear what they are experiencing...I think I need to be validated by him somehow, but then it doesnt always happen....