Please forgive me for being blunt, and I don't mean to place you under condemnation. But I can tell that you're confused on the nature of God and His plan for mankind. You need to get into the Bible big time and study it for yourself. Find out what His plan is - sexuality, creation, and any other topic in our world today.
Do you really want to find truth? If your answer is yes, then you can find it by studying for yourself. But if you really have no desire to find truth, it really doesn't matter. If you're satisfied with each person saying what he believes is true without research, you will never find it.
I thought the point of religion is to believe in God and feel his presence, love, kindness, etc? What good will studying the bible do if you can't feel any of those things? I can ask a Muslim or an atheist or any scholar to study the bible thoroughly and they still won't believe in Him if they don't 'feel' it. Doesn't believing in God have to be natural and sincere? You can't force someone to believe in Him by telling them to 'study' the bible more to know the 'truth'. If this is the case, people who don't own a bible will all go to hell then? Newly christian converted elders who are dying on their beds in the hospitals won't be saved cause they have no knowledge about the bible then? That's absurd. You will find the 'truth' only IF He allows/lets you see the 'truth', either by reading the bible or not.
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As a matter of fact, I HAVE studied the bible, in a scholarly level. The way many people interpret the bible is completely different than the others. There are SO many scriptures from the bible (mainly from the old testament) that are interpreted differently in favor of the church and for preaching reasons. They tend to put 'words' into God's mouth or whatever the story is, and make it seem that He is a compassionate God. For example, in the book of Genesis, many Christians exaggerate the 'love' of God for humans, when actually, God wasn't all about 'love' up until Jesus shows up in the new testament. Show me a scripture in the Genesis that says God is a compassionate and a just God. If you look up to the stories of Jacob and the likes of him who commit sin, why do God favor them more than their brothers who do not commit sin? Why does He bless him more instead of Essau? There are
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more stories like that like when Abraham is negotiating with God about how many people should be sinless in order for Sodom to be saved.. How does He determine justice?etc..
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Why did the tree of life even exist in the garden of eden in the first place if God didn't want adam n eve to eat it? What is the purpose of the fruit of life if its not meant to be eaten? We all know if the garden exists forever and if they live forever, sooner or later the fruit will be eaten, it's inevitable. It's there for eternity. It's like you are leaving a piece of delicious candy infront of a baby for eternity and tell him/her not to eat it.
* You cant expect him to not eat it forever.. Sooner or later it will
* eventually be eaten..
So some of you say it's God's way to test adam and eves obedience in Him. Why did God doubt them in the first place? When you eat the fruit of life , you will have all the knowledge in the world, including the good and the bad. If 'bad' already existed even before Eve ate the apple, what
* was the purpose of the knowledge of 'bad' for existing then? Did God actually want adam and eve to eventually eat the fruit in fear that they will become more powerful than God?
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See we can all interpret the bible in our own ways and have different understanding of it. That's actually what you get from studying it thoroughly, you get to see the literal, literature meaning of it.
Us Christians tend to twist some of the bible's exact words and interpret it on our own, putting more sugar into it so it sounds 'better' , to
make God sound nicer..
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See if you study the bible, it doesn't really do anything if God doesn't show Himself to you.
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What will happen to those people who live alone and are uneducated with the bible but can feel the presence of God and worship Him?
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Please think outside the box once in a while. Some of you are really like those old Christians who denied gravity and science and believed earth is the center of this galaxy and only believed in the bible. Are you too stubborn to face 'reality'? And yeah age really does matter, notice the older you are the stricter you become with religion and
* more stubborn. Younger people are usually
more open minded and less stubborn.
* And yes I am judging some of you right now, oh well I'm sorry. But hey,
* if i pray to Jesus and ask for His mercy, He will forgive me
of my judging ways and cleanse my sins right? Guess I'll do just that tonight.
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I'm sorry for my rants. I guess I'm just frustrated with myself and religion I guess. I'm still trying to find my identity. And it's really nice how some of you guys can relate to me and know how I feel. I respect & appreciate that, thanks. Thought I was walking into the lion's den and was about to be bombarded by bible passages all the time haha.