My daddy is a preacher, so I've grown up never missing a service, unless I was sick or pretending I was sick. I wasn't the bad "preacher's daughter", I was good, I had everyone believing I was the good little Christian girl, including myself. I thought I was saved when I was seven at a church camp, but when someone would ask me that question "If you were to die tomorrow, do you know for sure where you would go?" I always came up blank. I could just picture myself standing before the angel studdering. People always said that you would just know, like being in love, but I didn't and I was scarred. I tried to act like nothing was wrong, that I was just paranoid (sp?). I got into highschool and things were going great, at my school there are two elementry schools that combine to form the highschool. I had made it in with the cool girls from the other school, and I was the only cool one from my school (or so I thought) so things were going great. The stud quarterback happened to be a freshman also, and happened to be my boyfriend, I was Football Homecomming Queen, I am one of two freshmen to accomplish this. They even changed the rules after that so that freshmen could no longer run. Things were going great! Then a couple of weeks after we got back from Christmas vacation I was over at a friend's (from the other elementry schoool, Marissa) house when I found out that the other girls didn't like me, hated me infact. They were always talking bad behind my back, but that couldn't be true, they were my friends, they were so nice... So we called them, or my friend did while I listened on the other line....yeah, they hated me....So life sucked, I hated highschool, hated my friends, hated track the most! I was all by myself....except for Marissa. We would stay up long nights and talk about how stupid those other girls were, and why did so many guys like them, they were so stupid...this got us nowhere but down. Then we started talking about God, this was new to me, the only time I had Jesus talks was at church, not even at home. Well we ended up finding out that both of us were in the same boat, had been all our lives. We would go through waves as we called them. We would be on fire for Christ, then splat, down again. This had gone on for years, and still was. Crap! How could we get out of this?? There was no answer. At the beginning of this year we decided to become FCA officers, we got these cool new bibles, that were so easy to understand, and we now had to put on a good front for our friends, we couldn't have them thinking of us as hipocrites, now could we?? We found it was really easy. Our only problem was when it was just the two of us....Sinners. We went to Festival Con Dios...WOW!! We were on a high for a couple of weeks from that one! The the best thing ever happened... we figured it all out! We went to this play, 'Heaven's gates, Hell's flames' it got us thinking about how selfish we were, only caring about ourselves, our friends who we see everyday, we hadn't done one thing to help them. Boom! He had spoken to our hearts once again, and this time we had heard! It was amazing! God is truly wonderful! Since then we have changed! Bigtime, we can't get enough of him, sure we still have our ups and downs, but everyone does, he tells us we will! She is my stronghold! It seems like everytime one of us is down the other is up, and pulling!!! I love Marissa, she gets me back on the right track.
Since this has all happened I have wondered why I didn't find him earlier, then I realized that he was waiting for us to find each other, we are not strong enough without each other, but together, with him "We can walk on water!" Have you ever heard that song by Watermark? More than you'll ever know? It explains our relationship. Without the Holy Spirit, I would not be typing this right now, but also without Marissa. In fact she told me about this web site!!
Thank you for reading this novel about my life if you are wanting a sequel, just email me, and I'll be happy to write you one!! I love you and God bless you!!
Share each other's troubles and problems, and in this way obey the law of Christ. Galations 6:2
[This message has been edited by Georgia Caroline (edited 02 January 2002).]