Aye, i do have a tale to tell about how i lost faith in Christianity and religions altogether pretty much.
I was 10 and i had an injury. It was extremely painful, and it might have been from a previous surgury. It could have been a recuring thing, but i dunno. Anyway, it persisted for at least a month. The pain was nearly unbearable, and it was all the time.
So, one day after getting a serious bout of it, i actually kneeled down and prayed to your God, pleading for my pain to go away. I heard nothing, saw nothing, and the pain persisted. Nothing happened except for more pain. And the time that it did go away was after i made a birthday wish for it to just stop.
Thats how i lost faith in God. I reasoned that there was either a God that didnt care about me, a small child suffering from constant pain, or there just was no God. And as i grow more knowledgeable, i keep discoving that i made the right choice.
You are serious about this? I should have you know that the reason God doesn't just appear is because he's not like some kind of magic lamp you can rub and then he'll appear in front of your eyes, regretablly, this has to be a very foolish partaking you've made seeing as it's a very minor occurance compared to your lifetime as it is, one story of mine is when I was hit by an SUV about two or three years ago going 40 miles per hour, the part of my body that was the first to feel the impact of the concrete road was the back end of my skull, (and yes even blacking out you can feel impact) when I woke up, I saw a crowd of people standing around me and could have sworn I was dead: I wasn't.
After I realized I had awoken from my car accident in the same area I hit flat on the ground, , the paramedics loaded me up onto a slab bed and I went completely hysteric and couldn't control myself when this man came over and tried to put this neck cast around my throat, I clawed at him and shaked and rattled knowing that I had completely lost control of my body and it's functions, I had about two or three people pin me down hard onto the ground while I screamed and drooled, then I felt a massive pain in my head area once they loaded me onto the paramedics truck, then I felt something come over me, a strong fearful presence, at the same time it was conforting, and something struck me like never before when it happened, it's like there and then I understood what judgement was about, it was there and then that I could have easily died and not know where I may end up give my passing time from this earth, and the thing was I was an atheist, I couldn't stand the church I was going to and the way my parents were with Christianity and so forth, so I rebelled and just decided I didn't really care who or what God was, and that he was none of my concern, the worst part about this accident is having images flashing through your head while feeling this large hand above you that has the ability to rip you out and take you away or to let you prosper longer in life, and I came out lucky, I didn't have any broken bones, and I've healed completely, my dad came into the hospital and prayed while I was being sedated due to the secreation of thick blood surrounding my skull area, he had family members pray, as well as people I have never met before, they all came in and prayed, they were all Christians, today I cannot go back to being an atheist given that it is a foolish belief nothing more said, I can't take this seriously when you say something like your painful injury when you were 10 years old sort of thing, therefore I remain an agnostic, still looking for answers, still clinging on to the hope that someday I will fufill my purpose in life, and develope a relationship with the almighty.
My story does not end there, but this topic isn't about me, what you should know is that whatever you study has VERY limited resources, unforutnate for you science can only study NATURE, and yet people want to disprove or say God cannot exist because of simple physics, who in their right mind would question the plausibilities of nature and scientific laws to debate or even question the existence of a deity whom is the creator of creation? Do you understand what illogical assumption this is? We are like ants to the eyes and entirety of God, we cannot compare to his status, we have a free gifted mind and intelligence, an incredible intelligence, but we only know about our surroundings, we can't be the judges of anything more or beyond such.
An example of this is when people say that man has obscured God and made him into human equality because of his ego way of thinking, it goes both ways really, one thing so many people have misconcepted about the message of Christ is that Jesus says to spread the word and to give freely as all of those that shall receive freely, this means that you can leave it out there, but you cannot make others believe it, the biggest mistake and screw up of all time was when if you didn't believe in Jesus you would have been burned at the stake, Jesus never preached this, man has corrupted that message and turned it into massive controlling manipulation and it goes against the laws of free willl and equality, you shall give freely to your neighbor, but they must receive freely, given by choice and discresion, not by opression to do something against your opinions or beliefs.
Finally I would like to add that the other side of the debate is comparing God with human qualities in an ignorant manner, this arguement couldn't be farther from the truth, if God is being compared to humans are you saying it's okay to do whatever you want and God won't be angry with you at all? Are you saying that God doesn't feel or have emotions? If you are saying that you are saying God is unintelligent, which doesn't even make him "God" really, so what is he then? How incredibly stupid that someone would even state such an opinion, yes it's a stupid one, some people just don't do enough research to look into it and therefore they say something out of lack of recognition and interperetation, I have an idea, what if what humans feel are inheritant? Or do humans just make for themselves emotions? Angry, sadness, happiness, etc? And who's to say religion has limited God AT ALL? Read the bible and you will see it talks about God being limitless and unbinding, that doesn't sound like anything man-made to me to be quite honest with you, so whatever theories you have against God, just remember, you are an ant, and God is the one holding the magnifying glass.
God is like a parent, the pain we experience in life molds us to be stronger in spirit, our body is just a shell, the spirit is your character and personality, make the best of it while you can.
Peace.
