I have asked for councel and prayers. If GOD wouldn't hear me, perhaps he may listen to others on my behalf.
After learning the meaning of the unpardonable sin, i feel hopeless at times. But i would continue to seek him, not giving up.
I want to be straight with you. No games.
It has been explained to you that the unpardonable sin was for the Israelites - those under the law of Moses. After Jesus death bringing in the New Testament, we have an advocate Jesus Christ.
In Christ, we are forgiving for our sins - we cannot commit the unpardonable sin.
So why are you still wallowing in falsehood fearing you have committed the unpardonable sin?
You must settle down and understand scripture, especially the difference between the Old Testament and New Testament.
We are told we wrestle not with flush and blood. Who do you think we wrestle with if it’s not flesh and blood? Satan!
We are told in the gospel that God has not given us the spirit of fear, but God has given us Power…! So who has given us the spirit of fear! Satan!
We are told in the gospel that the servants of Christ suffer for Christ. This happened many ways. Your seemingly Inability to commit to Jesus is not you - it’s an attack on you from the evil one.
If we don’t pray to understand God’s word, we will continue to be in a position of misunderstanding the word.
We are under grace, brought in when Jesus died on the cross - we are now under the new covenant- New Testament. Our Father sits on the throne of Grace.
Your constant looking at the unpardonable sin is your misunderstanding the Bible, the gospel, and shows you are operating from the carnal mind/nature. The Bible tells us the carnal mind is enmity against God, and wrestle against the Spirit. All Christian’s go through this before they are filled with the Spirit - Read Romans 7.
When we are in the Spirit, we are given clear understanding, we have power to resist evil, we desire God, we walk in love, etc.
If you at one point has experience the beautiful Spirit of Christ, and feel you have lost it, then you are just not understanding salvation. Because, there is a sanctification process to where our old man, that is self man (carnal nature) must be put off. God through Jesus blesses us at certain times with His Spirit, but because we might be still babes, we can grieve the Spirit. But it’s a process we all go through. The sanctification process involves walking in darkness for a while, which involves persecution, confusion, turning away, etc, until God leads us down the right path. It is for the purpose of breaking the outer man, so that we can walk in the new man. We come to Christ as sinners, so through the power of God’s Spirit, work is done on us to conform us to God’s Son. And it can be painful, and confusing.
But, the work done on us is done by the Husbandman - God Himself. And He knows what He is doing.
So try and understand the path of every Christian, and understand you cannot loose your salvation.
If you continue to fret over the unpardonable sin and choose not to study scripture for understanding, then there is something else going on with you.