horrible new thoughts

[hms lion]

Hello again,

Over the past week, I keep on having terrible feelings about God's people. I've read about what was happening to the Church in places like Syria and Pakistan. I spent several days thinking about what I could do to help, and feeling guilty about living in a safe country whilst other Christians suffer daily persecution. Then whilst thinking it over I suddenly got a thought along the lines of 'I resent the Christians for are persecuted for making me feel guilty'.

I was horrified by the thought, and so I tried to suppress it. But it keeps on coming back, and each time it does, I feel awful. I've had OCD attacks before, but then these come now, I get a pain in my chest, and I feel awful. Afterwards I feel guilty, and sometimes I feel like I'm just as bad as the pharaoh in Exodus who enslaved the Jews, or the Romans who persecuted the early Church.

I pray to God, asking him to forgive me of my sins, and to take care of those who are persecuted because they believe in Jesus. The anxiety goes down for a bit, but then it comes back randomly, and I feel overwhelmed with guilt. I honestly haven't felt this bad since as far back as I can remember. Even when I thought I had committed the unpardonable sin, I didn't feel this bad.

Please Pray for me. Please.

 

[emilie mayer]

I to have suffered bad thoughts. Worse than the ones you describe. Confess those thoughts to God and ask for forgiveness . The thought bothered you and God knows it. God forgives all sin. Jesus died for all of our sins. When you accept Jesus you accept that He died for all our sins past present and future sins. OCD is rough. It does make your chest hurt, you feel left by God, there is a turmoil feeling in the pit of your stomach, you get tension headaches , the list goes on. It had gotten to where i couldnt sleep and hated night time. You need to focus on Christ. He hangs on to us ots not about wether or not we mess up. Read romans 8:38-39 it tells you nothing can seperate us from God. Ask God for wisdom and to show you truth. He loves you and knows what your goimg through. He is with you believe it or not. Talk to Him and you will start to trust Him more.

 

[babegirl111]

I understand what you are going through. It gets extremely tough and there were times where i felt like i was a HORRIBLE person. Just remember that God loves you. He knows your heart and sees your OCD. Keep your head up. Praying for you

 

[hms lion]

Thank you for your prayers. God Bless you.