I just need to unload this. I'm sorry. I don't want to keep making these kinds of posts but please consider how painful it is for me.
My dad is on a new kick to sabotage my walk with God. The newest thing is him saying how he wants to bring relatives from Pakistan (he doesn’t say who though) to live closer to us – and when I expressed my objection, he retorted “Is CHRISTIANITY more important??” When I accused him of doing this on purpose, he denied it, but I don’t believe it. He knows how much this makes me uncomfortable, and I don't doubt for a single moment that he doesn't relish in what he believes is the "fact" that I will give up the faith for the sake of his relatives, who I have no responsibility to obey. Even if my dad is doing this out of genuine desire to have his family around, I can't believe that he isn't dying for this to happen to me.
I'm not sure I can get Communion next time around (I just did confession on Ash Wednesday) because the thought crossed my mind "I hate his guts." I tried to sweep it aside, and I think I did (I don't know how long it took), but I'm still nothing short of exasperated at him.
My dad is on a new kick to sabotage my walk with God. The newest thing is him saying how he wants to bring relatives from Pakistan (he doesn’t say who though) to live closer to us – and when I expressed my objection, he retorted “Is CHRISTIANITY more important??” When I accused him of doing this on purpose, he denied it, but I don’t believe it. He knows how much this makes me uncomfortable, and I don't doubt for a single moment that he doesn't relish in what he believes is the "fact" that I will give up the faith for the sake of his relatives, who I have no responsibility to obey. Even if my dad is doing this out of genuine desire to have his family around, I can't believe that he isn't dying for this to happen to me.
I'm not sure I can get Communion next time around (I just did confession on Ash Wednesday) because the thought crossed my mind "I hate his guts." I tried to sweep it aside, and I think I did (I don't know how long it took), but I'm still nothing short of exasperated at him.
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