A series of events led me to finally leave the charismatic church I had belonged to for almost ten years, and eventually all "spirit-filled" churches. They began with the negative attitudes and then subtle treatments of both myself and others over differences regarding the more extreme doctrines such as end-times, demonology, manifestation of the Holy Spirit (the demand for the evidence of tongues), and finally the name-it-claim-it teachings, mainly coming out of the Copeland camp. I watched a poor family struggle both physically and spiritually to keep their young boy alive who had been stricken with an aggressive form of cancer, and even after all-night prayer vigils, the boy died in agony. Slowly, like a cancer of its own, I watched parishioners demonize the parents. Someone was to blame for their faithful prayers not being answered. The grieving parents ended up leaving the church. The final act that prompted me to leave came when my own father died an early death, one specifically he had claimed, in the name of Jesus, would never take him. "The curse had been broken!" After he died, similarly, our family felt the subtle eyes of scrutiny, and ultimately his death became the fault of our lack of true faith.
In the years since, I've drawn the most comfort from simply reading the New Testament. It was then I felt my eyes were most open to the message Jesus left us, the message Paul carried on, that emphasizes a lighter cross to bear, forgiveness, and charity towards others, especially those who lack matured faith.
Some of the stranger doctrines coming out of this sect of Christianity after I left have solidified even more my own conviction that I made the right decision. In particular the WOF emphasis on men being like God, and the prosperity doctrines that are proving to be more corrupt as so many of the teachers of this doctrine are exposed for their greed and excessive lifestyles.
Having said this, I live always with the knowledge that I cannot judge individuals, but it is my obligation to spurn teachings I simply cannot square with scripture in both doctrine and balance.
It made me wonder what was so bad about Messianic that it caused that type of reaction so I began to study it more. 
