- Nov 8, 2022
- 8
- 19
- 25
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
I haven't found an opportunity to make new friends, and I keep reverting back to Islam to make myself feel one with my social circle, but deep down I know this isn't the truth. What's worse is I have autism, can't drive, and regular everyday christians in my country, in the suburbs where i live (the usa) dont take it seriously when i ask for help. even though i live in the bible belt. my relatives and family make it hard on me when i tell them i've decided to convert because due to my autism i have hard time keeping secrets of things im "not supposed to do" (the reasons for this are complex, and even i dont fully understand it, but i heard one uber driver say his son was like that, too). i only have my therapist, and one online friend who used to be my assistant teacher in special ed at school back when i was in high school (and he only texts and not much). its gotten so bad even when i was muslim i would get needy. my mom refuses to drive me to church or use uber to go to church and i have no money, and my job pays me peanuts. (though i may eventually be able to go with uber but my phone wont load uber but that can get fixed but if she finds out why im doomed). she repeatedly tries to interfere with me practicing christianity, and its ramadan, and people are more prone to get angry over this stuff. i cant move out cause i have no money and inflation is through the roof, and i want to be a nurse because i want to go back to school to have a social life but the problem with that is that my old muslim friends there will retaliate for finding out about my conversion to christianity. if i go to a workplace like a warehouse or something, there will be bullying. muslims are vicious when it comes to apostates.